It's killing me, it's killing me, I can't breathe... the more I stop myself trying to think about you the more I think about you. I don't know why it's stupid and I know it is.

It's not worth thinking and longing for someone who doesn't care anything about you. I just want to be his friend, someone whom he can talk to. how much I wanted to tell him that I'd be here to listen to you if u ever need me, but it's pointless.

Can I just erase all that in my mind and move on. I don't want to be crying anymore!

An open diary... the only place where I can put all the sad things behind and try to move on but I never did... I feel so vulnerable, I really hate to cry but he just makes me upset everytime we argue I just cried. I've never like someone so far before not to mention I didn't even met him in person, this give me the sense of insecurity.

I really do like him alot and I think about him everyday but things are not going well between us. I don't want him to be upset but I don't want him to leave but if that make him to be happy I'll have to let go isn't it?

I really hate to cry, I really do

Haiz...

What do people and my relatives knows about me? They see me as a useless people who do nothing to provide for the family but do they even know what I am feeling? When my mum ask me for money if I have I sure give, I've been supporting myself since sec school.

I don't ask them for money if I want to buy stuff I earn and saved up myself, I buy the daily necessities for the home. Yet they just reprimand me not knowing what I have done.

Just because of my bad tempered they think I am hopless and useless... I'm tired of all these remarks

A state of mind.

In times of despair and dissapointment of my life I prayed, asking God to show me the way I'm supposed to go.

I'm not a christain but I love the bible, I'm afraid of friendly people in the church but I love the joyous spirit. I'm afraid of commitment when I don't have the determination.

Nevertheless, not being a daughter of God he still show me my way. Giving me hope, tellng me not to give up. Now it's all up to myself to work hard and really hope that everything will be ok. Continue to bless me and show me my way... Praise the Lord!!!

どうしたの。。。

Hmm Cny is just a few days round the corner and I still haven't get my shoes, wash the new clothes and my fringe got longer that it covers up my eye =C...

Please let this feeling go away I hate feeling like this =C I don't wanna hear about anything, I don't wanna know I just don't need to know so please heal me let this feeling go away.

Lead me the way I'm supposed to go, let me find peace in all the chaos that I'm feeling right now. If this is a trial I have to go through please make me stronger and let me forget about the hurt I've been through. Lead me to a new beginning

Kinship, Friendship is important to me T.T so important that I've forget all about myself I just feel so tired with all the nonsense I'm getting...

So... Just leave me alone please Don't let me know anything I can't take it anymore... I'm struggling so hard to break free to just catch a breath...

Another Depressing Dead Day

Saw my earlier post which stops halfway through explaining what I've done during the Christmas and countdown celebration and I just delete it as I don't know how I should continue with it..Anyway...

Here it starts, I must be crazy that I've actually woke up so early to give the damn company a call which end up saying I have called the wrong number =.= makes no sense and I was kindda piss as I am supposed to go for an interview with them at 10 am.

The woman who called said that she will send me an email on all the details like where I should go for interview so and so, apparently she didn't so what kind of working attitude is that irresponsible and makes it worse it actually says that I've called the wrong number....

So right now I'm sitting here with laptop on lap and blogger with a blank mind. Gosh lately I've been feeling so depressed that so many resumes I've send yet none called me to go for interview. T.T it it because my lack or experience i do not know why companies don't give people a chance to learn?

It's making me so depressed that everyday I'm looking forward for a call that says "can u come down for an interview?" yet not even a single call. Guess enough of all this negative thinking.

Good news for comics reader is that SG is gonna have it's Toys and Comics Convention held in Suntec on June!!! Yippie I think it's gonna be a fun events with merchandiser from all over Singapore and other countries to display a showcase of Toys and Comics and what's more there gonna be cos-players which adds in a little more flavour to the event.

Thing is I hope I can participate in it ^^ it'll be great fun to be able to work there or anything... Just wondering which company will participate on this event, like the words "the more the merrier"

I wrote this all of a sudden so I just gonna post it...When will I let it go I've no idea after so long it still hurts...

遇见你好快乐
可是时间不配合
让我和她同时遇见你
友情与爱情
我选择了前者
只好默默祝福

爱不都改甜蜜
为何我却在哭泣
只要时间能回到过去
我会说声我爱你

爱让我走下去
快乐是看你微笑
只要不回头看过去
让我们故事写下据点

看你离开
心里好痛
可是时间已经流走
只能看你背影消失

爱情不是礼物
不能让步
这个道理我现在才领悟
带着遗憾一直往前走