Motivation :( LOst

Skipped school today and went to see doc today seems to be a bad day for me, wake up saw Jess msg then realisd that the UT is in the morning well never mind and take Justin with me when I went to see the doc and just like what I think the doc also never say much but me myself feel that I'm getting weaker and weaker, no appetite to eat and tired...

Had a fight with mum just now and never talk to her... in the room can hear from outside that her hand is hurt and bleeding and her jade bracelet is broken... I'm so sorry I just dont know how to be ya good daughter guess we wont be talking to each other for a very long time and you told me not to call you again :( Depressed... I just want to be like everybody else to have your concern and I just want to be happy but all these years I never get to be as you dont care...All I need is ya listening ear...Trying hard to hold back tears now.

TOday we celebrate Justin birthday and didn't do much because of the fight.... Now I feel that I don't have the motivation to do anything my life seems to be at a lost and I don't know what can I do everything seems wrong... tml Gonna work after school also good can earn $$ and can't let me stop thinking about sad things...

I can only say in my heart I'm SORRY :( ~tata~