Had a tiff with my sis not a tiff more like a fight a serious fight in terms of physical, emotionally and verbally. a minute ago we were happy singing at K-box and the next we are fighting she was mean I'm her sister why do she have to treat me like that she often treat outsider better than me her sister connected by blood. She never ever care about my feelings in front of relatives and outsider saying I’m a lesbian and I like gals and stuff I have had enough of all these kind of verbally hurt words is my life born to let people make fun and tease of why they never ever care about how I feel WHY? Sometimes I just wish that I wasn't born and times I just wish that I'm dead but I'm a coward I don't dare to kill myself but if killing myself is a more cowardly act. Nobody ever feels how is it like to be me nobody if you stay in a situation like me then maybe you will understand but I guess no one will ever understand, living in a world where everyone makes fun of you when you are skinny when it's not even your choice. I myself also admit that I very skinny but who ask for it I can't even be fat even if I eat a lot, some people will say "wow so good, if I got your figure then I'll be happy ler" Really? will you be happy I guess not cause you are not me everyday I can hear people calling me names and making fun of me but I just get over it but how long can I pretend that they are just joking how long? I'm a human with feelings I will feel sad too although you may say I'm silly why bother what others say about you but can you really ignored it I have enough. What more sad is that my sis say that in front of so many people that I like gals after we have a fight she sms me really very bad stuff and I too can't control and sms her scolding back things.

I cried earlier on when speaking to Evon. I can't help but cried now too when I'm blogging this. Thank you Thank you Evon and Joy, Both of you are always there when I needed some one when I need a listening ear thank you. I'm lucky to have you all there to hear me out if not I don't know what to do I might not have the courage to live but with you all I can lessen my burden. Thank you I don't know how else can I expressed my gratitude can only say thank you and no matter what I'll be there for you all as well.