Back!!
I'm DEFINITELY ELATED TO BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO MY BLOG YES... for the past 1 year I never been blogging as I totally forget what was my user id and password and my stupid email was gone as the domain host was down which means that email was a piece of junk.
I'm so happy I'm able to come back here and blog about how I feel, this blog is a tools which allow me to let out what I store inside me all the frustration, pain well happiness too. There is so much I wanna say but wasn't able to.
I've no idea where should I start my life from, so much i wanna say but yet now what I feel is blank. My life have been going through too much struggle, ever since she's gone I haven't been able to pull myself through many time through these months I've found myself in tears; wasting my life away; turned to playing games to take my mind off things and there started another journey which turns my life into another path.
These few months playing games like Audition and GE have made my life different, small changes like sleeping late in the night to next day in the morning always lack of sleep my biology clock is totally in drastic change so is my health till now even to today I still having insomnia but of course through games I can actually stopped thinking about many things which makes me cry. There is so much in me that I wanna say it out but no one there to listen, so much so that I just feel that in any moment I'm going to break down.
Playing these games makes me think lesser and from these games I get to know friends like Ting, Meow, Hot, Harrt, Kumori and many more... I find comfort playing with them and share words; jokes, a lot of things with them. They are now consider as part and parcel of my life maybe one day when I think back I might laugh at what I've done and I'm glad to be able to cross their lives and leave a mark there (I hoped I did ^^).
I'm still the Queen of procrastination, still figuring what I want to do with life so many things wanted to achieve but so little I can do. I've been wondering if I didn't hop on to NA and stayed in NT class what will I be like now?? Probably get a cert in ITE and working my ass off maybe it will be better than what I'm leading now therefore I've never despise people with qualification from ITE in fact I somehow envy them. I guess enough of these topic.
Here I would really wanna thanks Bel, Neng, Von, Anna for providing with listening ears when I really need them, I find comfort talking to you guys and I will try to stay strong to figure my life out. Will fight Tears with Laughter; Misery with Happiness; Sadness with Joy, but when I can't hold back my tears I hope you all can understand and just let me be cause there is really so much misery than happiness in me.
To Ting: Thanks for today really enjoy the time with you though we didn't do anything much
I'm so happy I'm able to come back here and blog about how I feel, this blog is a tools which allow me to let out what I store inside me all the frustration, pain well happiness too. There is so much I wanna say but wasn't able to.
I've no idea where should I start my life from, so much i wanna say but yet now what I feel is blank. My life have been going through too much struggle, ever since she's gone I haven't been able to pull myself through many time through these months I've found myself in tears; wasting my life away; turned to playing games to take my mind off things and there started another journey which turns my life into another path.
These few months playing games like Audition and GE have made my life different, small changes like sleeping late in the night to next day in the morning always lack of sleep my biology clock is totally in drastic change so is my health till now even to today I still having insomnia but of course through games I can actually stopped thinking about many things which makes me cry. There is so much in me that I wanna say it out but no one there to listen, so much so that I just feel that in any moment I'm going to break down.
Playing these games makes me think lesser and from these games I get to know friends like Ting, Meow, Hot, Harrt, Kumori and many more... I find comfort playing with them and share words; jokes, a lot of things with them. They are now consider as part and parcel of my life maybe one day when I think back I might laugh at what I've done and I'm glad to be able to cross their lives and leave a mark there (I hoped I did ^^).
I'm still the Queen of procrastination, still figuring what I want to do with life so many things wanted to achieve but so little I can do. I've been wondering if I didn't hop on to NA and stayed in NT class what will I be like now?? Probably get a cert in ITE and working my ass off maybe it will be better than what I'm leading now therefore I've never despise people with qualification from ITE in fact I somehow envy them. I guess enough of these topic.
Here I would really wanna thanks Bel, Neng, Von, Anna for providing with listening ears when I really need them, I find comfort talking to you guys and I will try to stay strong to figure my life out. Will fight Tears with Laughter; Misery with Happiness; Sadness with Joy, but when I can't hold back my tears I hope you all can understand and just let me be cause there is really so much misery than happiness in me.
To Ting: Thanks for today really enjoy the time with you though we didn't do anything much
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