An open diary... the only place where I can put all the sad things behind and try to move on but I never did... I feel so vulnerable, I really hate to cry but he just makes me upset everytime we argue I just cried. I've never like someone so far before not to mention I didn't even met him in person, this give me the sense of insecurity.

I really do like him alot and I think about him everyday but things are not going well between us. I don't want him to be upset but I don't want him to leave but if that make him to be happy I'll have to let go isn't it?

I really hate to cry, I really do