~Life's an Illus|on~

2009-02-06T03:00:00.002+08:00

It's killing me, it's killing me, I can't breathe... the more I stop myself trying to think about you the more I think about you. I don't know why it's stupid and I know it is.

It's not worth thinking and longing for someone who doesn't care anything about you. I just want to be his friend, someone whom he can talk to. how much I wanted to tell him that I'd be here to listen to you if u ever need me, but it's pointless.

Can I just erase all that in my mind and move on. I don't want to be crying anymore!

2008-11-15T13:08:00.002+08:00

An open diary... the only place where I can put all the sad things behind and try to move on but I never did... I feel so vulnerable, I really hate to cry but he just makes me upset everytime we argue I just cried. I've never like someone so far before not to mention I didn't even met him in person, this give me the sense of insecurity.

I really do like him alot and I think about him everyday but things are not going well between us. I don't want him to be upset but I don't want him to leave but if that make him to be happy I'll have to let go isn't it?

I really hate to cry, I really do

Haiz...

2008-04-27T01:16:00.003+08:00

What do people and my relatives knows about me? They see me as a useless people who do nothing to provide for the family but do they even know what I am feeling? When my mum ask me for money if I have I sure give, I've been supporting myself since sec school.

I don't ask them for money if I want to buy stuff I earn and saved up myself, I buy the daily necessities for the home. Yet they just reprimand me not knowing what I have done.

Just because of my bad tempered they think I am hopless and useless... I'm tired of all these remarks

A state of mind.

2008-02-11T12:20:00.000+08:00

In times of despair and dissapointment of my life I prayed, asking God to show me the way I'm supposed to go.

I'm not a christain but I love the bible, I'm afraid of friendly people in the church but I love the joyous spirit. I'm afraid of commitment when I don't have the determination.

Nevertheless, not being a daughter of God he still show me my way. Giving me hope, tellng me not to give up. Now it's all up to myself to work hard and really hope that everything will be ok. Continue to bless me and show me my way... Praise the Lord!!!

どうしたの。。。

2008-02-03T03:29:00.000+08:00

Hmm Cny is just a few days round the corner and I still haven't get my shoes, wash the new clothes and my fringe got longer that it covers up my eye =C...

Please let this feeling go away I hate feeling like this =C I don't wanna hear about anything, I don't wanna know I just don't need to know so please heal me let this feeling go away.

Lead me the way I'm supposed to go, let me find peace in all the chaos that I'm feeling right now. If this is a trial I have to go through please make me stronger and let me forget about the hurt I've been through. Lead me to a new beginning

Kinship, Friendship is important to me T.T so important that I've forget all about myself I just feel so tired with all the nonsense I'm getting...

So... Just leave me alone please Don't let me know anything I can't take it anymore... I'm struggling so hard to break free to just catch a breath...

Another Depressing Dead Day

2008-01-30T09:42:00.001+08:00

Saw my earlier post which stops halfway through explaining what I've done during the Christmas and countdown celebration and I just delete it as I don't know how I should continue with it..Anyway...

Here it starts, I must be crazy that I've actually woke up so early to give the damn company a call which end up saying I have called the wrong number =.= makes no sense and I was kindda piss as I am supposed to go for an interview with them at 10 am.

The woman who called said that she will send me an email on all the details like where I should go for interview so and so, apparently she didn't so what kind of working attitude is that irresponsible and makes it worse it actually says that I've called the wrong number....

So right now I'm sitting here with laptop on lap and blogger with a blank mind. Gosh lately I've been feeling so depressed that so many resumes I've send yet none called me to go for interview. T.T it it because my lack or experience i do not know why companies don't give people a chance to learn?

It's making me so depressed that everyday I'm looking forward for a call that says "can u come down for an interview?" yet not even a single call. Guess enough of all this negative thinking.

Good news for comics reader is that SG is gonna have it's Toys and Comics Convention held in Suntec on June!!! Yippie I think it's gonna be a fun events with merchandiser from all over Singapore and other countries to display a showcase of Toys and Comics and what's more there gonna be cos-players which adds in a little more flavour to the event.

Thing is I hope I can participate in it ^^ it'll be great fun to be able to work there or anything... Just wondering which company will participate on this event, like the words "the more the merrier"

2007-12-02T15:20:00.000+08:00

I wrote this all of a sudden so I just gonna post it...When will I let it go I've no idea after so long it still hurts...

遇见你好快乐
可是时间不配合
让我和她同时遇见你
友情与爱情
我选择了前者
只好默默祝福

爱不都改甜蜜
为何我却在哭泣
只要时间能回到过去
我会说声我爱你

爱让我走下去
快乐是看你微笑
只要不回头看过去
让我们故事写下据点

看你离开
心里好痛
可是时间已经流走
只能看你背影消失

爱情不是礼物
不能让步
这个道理我现在才领悟
带着遗憾一直往前走

Wedding Dinner

2007-10-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to attend my boss wedding finally it was over and was funny that we found out something about their siblings which they try to hide for so long... It was all fun hope we get to have the picture. I really love working there I love AC all the colleague are so nice I love working with them, chatting with them and all, new colleagues are fun too.

Wednesday have to dress up as lime magazine will be interviewing my boss and I'll have to work but hope it was fun!!!

As for now, I feel so sick for the past few days have been bad let's hope I will get better soon. i feel better but if I were to make myself to forget the more i remember let's hope time will take away my misery...

For her My Friend... For him too...

2007-10-16T01:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I receive a shocking news about my friend, for the past few days I sense that something might have gone wrong and I sent her a sms not knowing if she be able to read it or did she had her number change. I really hope she be able to take good care of herself and that she be blissfully happy with him.

After getting the news that she was in coma I cried not knowing what to do, even though I have never met her but I consider her as my friend I'm at a loss now.

I have asked my friend to help me pray for her and I'll be praying for her everyday. God please bless her with the strength and will to get out of the situation, give her the strength to recover as many of us are worried.

I really hope that I can visit her in the hospital... As for him I am really worried that he might be emotionally unstable and not eating properly but all I can do is through another friend to show my concern there is nothing I can do just asking my friend to remember to send him an sms a day to remind him to take his meal.

Through this blog I wanna convey this to him knowing that he wont read it...

You have to pull yourself up and take good care
everyone is worried about you including her
you cannot afford to fall sick as she needs you there by her side to give her support too so please take good care of yourself...

..++Devil May Cry++..

2007-10-04T03:15:00.001+08:00

As you seen above title and yes you are RIGHT!!! This post is gonna rant about Devil May Cry the anime.

Just finish watching Devil May Cry, a 12ep anime about a devil hunter named Dante (^^ SUAVE *Drools just joking =X*)who is a devil hunter. He's kind of like a half-human; half-demon who fights あかま(demons)...

Don't ask why he is half-human; half-demon, watch it and you will know. So overall I like this anime, not too gruesome not too sad just nice. Anyway main point is I'm in love with the ending song so here you have it...

Song for the day or weeks for my blog will be

Song: I'll be your home
Singer: Rin Oikawa

Don't look back
Don't regret
Time's falling out of these hands
I'll let you leave me

Go on you know home
It's always inside your soul
All the light to bless your way
Don't be afraid
Cause I'll be your home

In this time
In this place
This moment is all we have
And tomorrow we never know

Every precious time
Let it go somewhere away
You will learn, and you'll love
Forgive the past
And you can move on

All the distance
You've come to a place
Then you see that your home is away
Now the sun is rising
Lighting up your sky again brightly

Every precious time
Let it go somewhere away
You will learn, and you'll love
Forgive the past

Go on you know home
It's always inside your soul
Wherever you go
Whatever you see
I'll be a good place
And I'll be your home

Beautiful music I love it =^^= hoped those who read my blog enjoy it too.

_QUIZeeeeeeee_

2007-09-27T04:10:00.000+08:00

Well wanna blogged about my bday as well as Hui's but I wanna wait for the photos as it says picture says a thousand words and you can get a clearer view with that so in the meantime I shall do these quiz...

1. The person who tagged you is?
Danitza

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
One of the 3 musketeers in my family (consist of Van which is me, Nana the sexy 1, and Dan hmm the crazy 1)

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
1. Cute (green freak)
2. Smart
3. Funny
4. Pretty
5. Crazy which sometimes she do idiotic things like the ear to ear smile at me =X

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Too much that I can't remember cannot blame the old lady for having bad memories can you. Oh I remember we can talk to each other about some stuff.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
Well hmm erm =X too many?

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
Cannot imagine but that will never happen.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
Be a guy?

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
Cry and kill myself coz I just love her so much

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
She cannot stand having me as her aunt which will never happen well then it must be I said something stupid that make her angry =C

10.The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Hug her and tell her I LOVE YOU!!!

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
Crazy =.=

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
Idiotic why is she so stupid?

13.The character trait you love of yourself is?
well Can't think of it

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
having no self-esteem, self-determination. SO MANY I hate about myself oh ya being soooooooo skinny

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
I shall get back to this question when I can think of it.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1. Shemona
2. Hui Xian
3. Fauzoo
4. Kumori
5. Joy
6. Evon
7. Bijun
8. Mabelline
9. Duan Neng
10.Wei QI

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Evon...Nobody

18.Is no.9 a male or female?
Duan Neng...female.

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Bijun and WeiQi... NO =.=

20.How about no.8 and 5?
Mabelline and Joy... NO stop asking weird questions!!!

21.What is no.2 studying about?
Hui Xian...Psychology

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
today like few hours ago.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
Mabelline... Well I not too sure about that she listens to Chinese songs and she like Wang Lee Hom if that counts =p

24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
Shemona...Yeap 1 older 1 younger brother which might consider irritating at times =X

25.Will you woo no.3?
Fauzoo... no

26.Is no.4 single?
Kumori... Hmm Not sure are they alright now so I've no idea

27.What’s the surname of no.5?
Joy Low.

28.What’s the hobby of no.4?
Kumori... Hmm drooling over Kiro or J-rocker

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
Joy and Neng... No

30.Where is no.2 studying at?
Hui... JCU

31.Talk something casually about no.1?
She... Sexy wahaha I love her!!!

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
Mabel???? NO WAY!!!

33.Where does no.9 live at?
Mabel... Tamp

34.What color does no.4 like?
Kumori...black

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Joy and She... They don't even know each other =.=

36.Does no.7 likes no.2?
Jun and Hui...How many times have I say no weird questions...

37.How do you get to know no.2?
Hui...Sec Sch

38.Does no.1 have any pets?
She... Rabbit

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Well Jun is Cute =^^=

After 39 Questions I wonder why I even take the time to do it... =.= stress relieved I guess -.-'''

Sims Video Watcher Fanatic >.<

2007-09-19T00:41:00.000+08:00

Since yesterday, I was stuck watching to sims video made by random video and I was amazed by how good those sims music video and movie is...

It just happened when I wanted to watch some Mvs and stumble upon this sims music video by this person id called jaydee227 and from then I was stuck watching and looking for more interesting sims video... I think he did the best music videos with sims and I watch the others video in his favourite which was so damn amazing.

The 1st impression that I watch was like OMG that was soooooooo good and way to cool... How did they do it man hands ups for them...

So I need to share it with you guys it is really very good, do take time to watch it

Jaydee227's work

Skater Boi by avril lavigne
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LeZIIgbPzzI

Helena by My chemical Romance
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NFiu-V7StQ

He did 3 videos u ca ngo under him to watch the other and those under his favourites, It AWESOME really blew my mind off....

2007-09-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

Song for the Day: When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
[ When You're Gone lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I'm in pain...Too much memories too much pain; too precious too much tears...

Tears for the unwanted I'm trying my best to pick myself up trying hard but I can't cause I cannot move on and I don't know how to... I can hardly breath...

Familiar faces have gone missing familiar taste familiar voices where have they gone to... Why must I move on when I don't want to? I've think of ending all these but I'm a coward and selfish to do so...

Don't tell me to get a job I'm trying to find one... Don't tell me stop thinking about things cause I've tried but I can't just forget... It's over I'll moved on but never again will I see things the same... Happiness is somewhere far I can't find it within my reach.

I know I should blogged sth about the happy days and my bday but not now...
When I feel better I'll blog about it...Right now I just want to cry...

Will the pain go away?

To all My Bestie...

2007-09-03T20:03:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to all my besties if you want me to name all here it goes...

Ranking doesn't apply:

Princesses:
Von
Neng zai
Jun chan
Ling zai
Qi Vivian

Sec 5 bestie:
Hui
Joy
Jos
Koon
CC
Ron
Wai
Julia
Sharon Lim

Rp mates:
Jess
Maine
Step
pinky jie

Other Friends:
Bel
Cindy
Ainun
Ming en
Wendy
JJ Benson
Han wei
Alan

To all my relatives as well

To those I never mention u are in the list just that there are too many to mention
To those if I never mention u are in it too just that there are too many to be name.

I JUST WANNA SAY A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU

Thank you for being with there for me whenever I feel down, thanks for being my friends through all these years and never give me up. Looking through all those cards and gifts all of you send me it brings back fond memories I cherish all of your friendship.

I can only say thank you as I don't know how to express how much joy I found being with you guys, the days we spend the jokes we share, the moments relived itself whenever I look through those things. I hope in the future we are still able to share the moments together...

Let us build more memories together... I love you guys... Thank you... Really THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND.

Quote:

A Friend...

is someone who isn't put off by your crabby face

someone who helps you to forget your self-doubts

...

2007-08-24T03:59:00.000+08:00

When you see my post with ... it means that I've no idea what can I say or what should I say... you can't feel how I feel as you are not me...

Just got home from bringing Daddy back, once again disappointment is all I felt I don't know if I should harbour any hope that at least one day he will be home early and not be drunk. I'm tired of my life living like this but as long as he don't leave me I guess I can still go on...

My journey out I kept thinking I guess I will always behave like a child and not wanting to grow up maybe because I've always hoped for parental love... I just hope to be able to sit down and have my own family gathering just like long long time ago I can't remember how does it feels like as all I can remember is that we always end up in fights...

The fear of loneliness is there... There was a gal who woke up at night and found that she is alone at home, crying out loud for people around her but to no avail and that was me even though they just went out but to me it's like abandonment and darkness engulfed me and tears of fear just flow downed...

Last year Sept, I felt the same when my most beloved one left me forever... Never again will I be able to taste what she cooks, never again can I show her all my new stuffs and never again will I be able to see her face... Right now I still felt lost... I'm wasting my life just like that... I just want to feel the same care from someone closer now, it is the only force to keeps me going I cannot handle another lost if that comes I think I might not be able to take it...

Unspoken words doesn't mean I don't care it's just that I don't know how to show it. To my friends out there pardon me for being this way and to some of you stop torturing me cause it really hurts... Just let me go if you think I'm not worthy of your friendship as I'm really tired trying to maintain them. Accept me for who I am and not what you want me to be, I'm not what you think I might be so stop pinning hope that I will change cause I'm tired. How many time have you seen me really cry? None as I'm trying not to burden you all as you will never feel how I feel, the pain...

Sorrows and Misery have engulfed my whole life I don't think I can be saved now

7 o'clock's thought

2007-08-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

你真得很笨
笨得无可救药
我想对你说的
你却不明白
我只想传达的是
希望我的明天会有你

我是真得很傻
傻得无可救药
在感情的世界里没有对或错
如果我们能够容忍彼此的缺点
结局可能会不同

我选择了放手
祝福你能快了
未来的她也能给你幸福
是我关闭自己不让任何人接近
却忍受不了悲伤

If only Time can turn back
I won't let you go
因为我知道放弃你
只有悲伤陪伴我
但都来不及
因为你已走了

我只想再一次
看见你的微笑
你的影子旋绕在我脑海里
看得到却碰不到

Just one word kept in my heart

The above I just wrote it cause I can't sleep and it was 7 in the morning yet still I can't get a wink so end up writing all these which how I felt at the moment. Bare with it coz my Chinese Sux too...

Pursue my dream

2007-08-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

Back on track, have been looking for jobs and now I hope I will be call to work and after all these job hunting and interviewing I've realised that i really love music, that's my passion therefore I hope to work in this industry.

Might not be working something like composer or producer or anything related to it but as long as I'm in the music industry even though doing admin work I won't mind. I'm going to pursue and work towards my passion and I'm glad that I figure out that this is what I want just hope that everything goes my way.

Failed my Japanese test just by 1 mark T.T well this means I've to really start studying real hard no more procrastinating so がんばって but seems like I've been going out having fun more than studying =.= *smack myself* but I need to get things off my mind (>.<) Was browsing through photos yesterday and I am glad to say that I LOVE MY FAMILY, MY RELATIVES and OF COURSE MY DEAREST FRIEND.

To Hui:

No matter what happen we be here beside you and I know sometimes I might be a pain in the ass but I just hope to make you happy and feel less lonely ^^ I love you my friend. So no matter what or when you need me give me a call I can lend u my ear and shoulder and crack up lame jokes just to see you smile okiea.

P.S:
The above message applies to all of those who know me regardless of gender, race, religion or whatever shit just to let all of you know... YOU WILL NEVER BE ALONE...

Pictures from last year X'mas and other events:
(paiseh got this photos just on sat coz my niece is quite busy to burn the photo)

Nickelback's Far Away

2007-08-15T18:07:00.000+08:00

This song has been stuck in my head ever since I came back from Subway on Monday. Chorus repeating all over in my head but I've no idea who sing it or what's the song title therefore I spend my time looking over it on Youtube. Few hours pass so as it seems, search is still on but to no avail one by one I click on the clips and TA DA finally I found it... Effort not wasted ^^ song by Nickelback titled Far Away.

Here's the Lyrics:

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

So far away
(So far away)
been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

All I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say:
that I love you
(I love you)
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
(and I forgive you)
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me and never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me and never let me go

Nice song with meaningful lyrics. If my boyfriend-to-be sing this to me I will fall in love with him ahhaa (>.<) dream on... =.=

Anna ask me what do I want for my Birthday? She say maybe I should write in down on my blog.

My answer: I just hope I can spend my B-day with Grandma T.T... I love her
I also hope to spend it with...
But that's all in the past no point thinking things that will never happen...

My Birthday Wish... Is to turn back time...

Enjoyable (^o^)

2007-08-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm I shall blog in few words as I think my english is deproving or maybe I should say that my english has never been improve.

Saturday entry 11 Aug'07

Met up with Jun chan and Neng zai as we wanted to watch the cosplay event situated @ Orchard Cineleisure. I thought it be more like a grand event but to my dissapointment, the event wasn't really huge and not much cosplayer involved as what I have imagined. We took a few picture just one or two. Enjoy them!!!

Naruto cosplayer Kawaii desu ne!! ( the boy looks really cute I've got a shock when he turn around)

One of the Ouran High School Character Cosplayer

Character from D'grey

Sorry for the quality of the pic due to the scalling =X ahaha picture might look distorted (>.<)...

Hope to see more of this kind of event as they are interesting ne!!!!

Sunday Entry 12 Aug'07

Nothing Much Just work and so dead tired went home and sleep till the morning...

Monday Entry 13 Aug'07

Work again (~.~) Tired luckily I only have to work till 5.30. Met up with hui and her bf went o eat then went to Pasir Ris as she wanna book chalet to celebrate her birthday. Met jos and joy at Downtown east then we had Subway Oishii but too full =X till now my stomache can't digest any more food. Not to mention the guy who works at Subway are cute lolx too bad too young ahhaa guess he is a Eurasian and hui say he keep looking over at our table lol and she wonders who is he looking at well not my business as well.. After dinner we head to the arcade and have a few game... Fun is the word!!!

Friday 10 August'07 entry

2007-08-11T04:25:00.000+08:00

Just came out from Audi feeling kindda down... I just don't want to be selfish and make her play with me only that's why I ask her if she wanna join the rest. She just can't tell that they don't really want me to be present if not they would have pm me and ask if I wanna join them too.

When I was in the room I try to talk so much but I feel like I'm just talking to the wall with minimal replies from them, I don't see why do I have to come across this kind of situation therefore the only way is to find my other friends while leaving her to enjoy with them.

Ended up I'm always at fault well it's ok as long as everyone around me feels happy then I will be happy. If you are reading this, I hope you won't be angry this is just how I feel when I ask if you wanna joined them in the game as I don't want you to be always playing with me only cause they are your friends too. I shall end this topic at here...

Today went to 85 market to celebrate Joy's b-day although we did it on sat but today are with her poly mates so we have guys sitting on one side and gals on the other.
It's really interesting how I ended up knowing them, the guys always like to tease Joy and make fun of her but it is also fun to see them doing that and I think joy is enjoying herself catching up with their life, finding out how they are doing. We enjoyed the food there and have tang yuan of different taste as dessert one word おいしいですね ^^ really enjoyed myself but one thing is that why do we end up talking about dead bodies and how people died and all those stuff at the end of the day =.=

Come to think of it although I am not really close with them but they are definitely closer to me than those I know in RP, It's amazing how we cross each other's life and I've know them since poly year 1 even though we are from different school, whenever we have gathering I guess me and hui always feel that we are the odd 1 out as the rest of them are from TP. Still I've say I'm really glad to be able to befriend them cause they brighten up my life ^^ these friends are hard to come by: Joy, Jos, Hui, Koon, JJ, HW, Saw, Alan, Desmond very happy to know all of you!!! Probably it been long before we get to see each other again and now pls take good care!!!

Happy National Day!!!

2007-08-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore you move towards to become a better country and you are one year older ^^...

Well Today is National day but the 7 of us are not celebrating the birthday of SG we are celebrating Joy's Bday, was supposed to meet them 11.30 @ bedok interchange but I end up being late but still the 1st to reach lol coz all of them are late as well...

Destination for the day East Coast Park (ECP)... Mood for the day: SUPER FUN And Tiring. 1st I met up with Hui,Joy,Jos and Koon then we went to board the bus which takes us to our destination, then we met up with ron and wai. While waiting for Joy and some of them to come out of the ladies, me and ron almost got attack by some green BIG insect which is flying towards my direction and it's really huge. My immediate reaction is duck down while that Ron screaming her lungs out and hiding behind me =.=..

Finally when the gals are out from the ladies we head to the bicycle shop to rent bikes and blades so off we went cycling. Hui and Joy were riding the two-person bike so they went off by their own first then I tried to catch up while stopping once awhile to check where are the rest we are behind me but I see no sign of them so I just continue to cycle to find the two and finally found them, so we waited for the rest who are still behind...

When we finally saw them it turn out that Ron and koon almost got attack by a huge bee =.= (What day is today?? Bug attacking day? >.<) or should I say Ron u are attracting insect LOL. So Ron and Koon just threw their bikes aside and run LOLX kindda funny though =X... We return out bikes @ 6 and walk our way to Jumbo to have dinner and on the way we saw an actor but he is not really famous(the guy who acted in the 7pm show as wind). Joy treat us to a superb dinner and it cost her around 200 plus T.T thanks alot for treating us...

Well meeting her again tomorrow with her poly mates to celebrate her bday again lolx today is just purely for Gals... Gals outing

2007-08-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

I wanted to tell her I feel that... but I end up saying nothing.

This is what I wanna say: I feel that I've lost my friends... Bel you say that I'm so nice in fact I would rather say I'm coward cause I dare not faced reality...

I'm getting fine as time goes though the wound is there but I'm the only one who makes it hurt more =.= so I'm moving out of this shell and experience a new life and I believe one day I can look at this space and not feeling any pain^^ and not waiting for any hope...

Busy week

2007-08-06T00:24:00.001+08:00

Today is last day of the week and I was fully packed with schedules =.= Tired!!!

Let's start with Fri...

Friday morning woke up at around 8 a.m to give the company a call to confirm when is my interview time but no one pick up the phone =.= so I guess it be at 4 p.m so I went back to sleep till 2p.m to get myself prepared I as kind of nervous that I can hardly breath (>.<)...

Wanted to pin my fringe up but Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh they are too short =.= all I can do is comb them to the side lolx well with everything prepared portfolio in hand off I go head to somerset for interview... Destination reached but -.-''' I lost my way darn I'm so idiot with roads and finding places so all I can do is ask people for direction and finally I still managed to reach there in time for interview... 1 hour later I came out well So glad that I get over and done with but I guess it didn't go that well *crossed finger* so tired with heels and all and I head straight home...

Play a few rounds of audi with ting and senior and off I have to go again meeting Jun chan and neng zai at Starbucks cafe to study Jap as the next day I have a test on (>.<) but I can't understand anything T.T we were there till 11 plus then off we go head for next destination ---> Von's place to pick her up to head to Mount Faber.

*Excited* and off we went ready to head down the road in Neng zai's car (though I was kindda worried =X but I have faith in her) On the road at expressway we didn't make a left turn and we got lost (*Jiu Ming AhHh*) T.T so we end up in some toa payoh place and head off trying to find the way back to PIE and as you can guess we failed so I also don't know we end up at where *LOL* but it was all fun.

So after a few rounds of drive to don't know where we are, we decided that we are all hungry so we gave up to our original destination Mount Faber and settle down for Bedok 85 market *drools* so Hungry (>.<) so after food we just sit in the car and have our gal's talk till 3 a.m then we head home.

Of course not being able to sleep when I got home I decided to study Jap as I never really did study them till 4 and finally I am soo tired that I went to bed...

Sat's account

Not enough sleep and I have to wake up so early to prepare for Jap test *feel like dying* and there I goes Looking at the test paper with a blank face that goes *HUH*
I'm so dead this time I can shamefully say that 9 out of 10 question I have no idea what the paper is talking about... My mind was going like *Hmm, Huh, What the hell is this, =.=, OMG, I don't understand someone please tell me the answer* and I just anyhow fill it in LOL there goes my test *sob sob *

I shall study real Hard from now on... After test went home and stone, was surposed to packed my bag and prepare for chalet but I just sit there to stone not wanting to move *lazy I know*

I change to shorts and head to aunt's place before I head down to the chalet and =.= my cousin ask me change to long pant coz pasir is dengue hot spot *diaoz* so I went back up to my place and change to berms lolx and I just dont care and head to chalet till this morning then reach home SO tired!!!

The End...

This coming week new packed schedule =.= Gambatte kudasai MZ!!!

2007-08-02T16:04:00.000+08:00

どこですか。わたしわどこですか。Where have I been? Wake Up from all this MZ.

Blast to my ipod yesterday or should I say today morning and I cried to sleep how long have I cry I've no idea but I woke up feeling down not wanting to move or do anything, I just cover myself under the blanket...

It's over I guess all over and I can finally put it behind me though the feelings is still there but I will let it go slowly isn't this what I wanted? i don't wanna think about it anymore...

Thanks Von and Hui for being here, thanks Von I really feel much better talking it out with you at least I end up laughing I love you the most VON!!! I know I can tell u just anything and wont feel embarrassed or ashamed of it.

I will try to cry less I will try my best no promises but I try... It's been a long time since I cry to sleep come to think of it I am sooo stupid =.=

Nana Ends...

2007-08-02T02:19:00.000+08:00

Today met up with Jun chan @ simei to study nihongo T.T ahh tsumaranai desu but test is coming this sat I've to study real hard if not fail is surely be the word (>.<)... Well we had a lot to talk about and I'm glad to know what have been going with her. Jun-chan call me baka chan *CRIESSSSS* Watashi wa baka dewa arimasen!!!! *hmph*

Anyway I just finish watching NANA anime AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW It's over T.T I want season 2!!!! Can't wait but i guess it still be long before they come out with season 2 *sigh*

Chatted with Bel and I tell her I got new quote which I got it from Nana here it goes:

"they say that once you lose someone,
you understand how precious they were to you...
you probably realisze the true meaning of that saying
when you meet that person again face-to-face..."

Sad isn't it but true, she asked "do you feel that way?" i just say " i don't know"...

I just find it so true that you only realised how precious they were to you when you lose them cause human are like this isn't it? They don't know how to cherish someone or something that is there all along.

Bel asked: Have you thought of what you will do if you met...

Me: Probably I'll just smile and walk away?

What will I do? What will you do?

Given a chance I will probably do the same thing but with exception that I leave some space so that at least things will be better than now but that's all in the past and I've to let it go Yes I've to let it go maybe not totally but slowly bit by bit. I cherish all of you my friend in fact I'm too afraid that I might lose all of you cause I'm need all of you so much that I'm trying to avoid all of you.

Why? I don't know maybe it be better I leave silently than to find that you have drifted apart from me probably less hurt... I'm afraid to get hurt but I'm more afraid to lose you all... I need help...

Fill-in-the-blank

2007-08-01T00:57:00.000+08:00

Thanks Joy and the rest for the movie and sorry for being late... I really miss those days where we used to spend time together but that was in the past. I do cherish the little time we spend even though we just went for a movie and head home after that. Joy I know you are trying to help me I appreciates it alot but I need to make my own decision and thinks about what I want in life. After sending hui to board her bus I blast on to my ipod and back to reality...

Walking down the streets feeling lost and not knowing what to do or where should i head. I can say that loneliness is all I felt, I don't wanna head home but then I've no where to go so I just sit at my block the void deck and stoned... What should I do???

Earlier on the way to meet them I read Freedom Writer Diary throughout my train journey, the book is all about the entries of pupils from 203 and with every pages I read I cry cause i feel them though I'm not in the war like they are and what I feel is that I'm definitely more fortunate to live in a safe country where racism doesn't exist. It really pains me to read them and makes me wonder how can people judge someone just by their colors? Why can't they live in peace? Why do they have to jumped on one another just because they are of different race; religion? After all aren't we the same as humans? Everyone who contributed to the book experience war within themselves, they experience being molested, attack by gangster, running for their lives with other group jumping on them with guns and sadly they have experience pain of losing someone close to them because of stupid fights. Compared with them we are really far off fortunate living here in SG but it seems that nowadays kids don't appreciate that... Haiz...

I guess I've to put it all behind me and look towards the future but I just can't, chatted with Bel and she say I don't have to move on just have to let it go a little and that granny will be looking over you and that she stands a special place in my heart. Thanks alot for listening to my trouble and she provide me with this quote:

Be strong now, because things will get better.
It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever

Thanks you Bel, you are really sweet. I keep telling her how much I miss and how much I find myself stupid to be crying for unworthy peeps but she just give encouraging words.

Newly added @ 3.03am just reach home throughout the whole journey I'm living in fear, I don't like it when he talks to me when he is drunk I'm scare and worried about it... Lost... helped me

2007-07-30T20:19:00.000+08:00

With no title for this entry is deeply how I feel with heartache and tears cutting me through...

Song title: Winter sleep Lyrics: Eclipse Music: OLIVIA・rui

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep

I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

Nice song with lyrics I can relate to, What I love to do? Listen to music and write down how I feel deep down. "Bang... could someone just shoot me in the head or heart??" Lesser pain I guess if someone do that. Never in a day that I won't cry, smiles on the outside tears on the inside, screwed myself for fallen so hard. No one gonna read this...

Hate myself to this point for crying when I shouldn't and should stay strong... Wherever I go whatever I do I just can't stop this pain and every moment I'm reminiscing about everything like this lyrics "Am I ever gonna feel myself again?" ~~Please leave me alone can you? I would really feel much better if I never know...~~

I can't faced the reality because I know how I feel... I've fallen so hard, so much so that I can't believe I've fallen and I can't find myself, lost in this maze locked forever maybe someday sometime I will find a way out but right now I'm just stucked in there..."Bang... please just shoot me please" Silly me, no one will do that if they are going to jail right... Don't ask even if you did don't let me know cause it only adds on to the pain, I thought as days and time passed the pain will be lesser, lesser than yesterday and I'll feel better today but I guess I'm wrong it will never decrease if I don't let myself forget. Never have I realised I've fallen, fallen so hard with so much pain but I never regret it cause it's part of me... So long so long i've cry, so many times, maybe I should clear my playlist so no more emotional song for me probably it will save me bit by bit.

I'm tired really am tired trying to stay strong when I'm not... I just wanna break down in tears and all need is a shoulder to cry on... Will you just be here with me my friend, I don't need words to console me not even the shoulder to lean on all i need is any of you to be here and watched me cry, be here like how I'll be there for all of you and just show me that I'm never alone that is all I need... Those reading this might be thinking "there she goes again" but how many of you really knows what I'm feeling and listens to what I've to say, how many of you have seen me cry? I'm afraid to lose myself, to lose all of you, I've changed and I hate it never am I the same as I used to be and I'm scared... Save me...

Work!!!

2007-07-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

Started today feeling tired, ended my day feeling more tired T.T

Slept at this morning at 4a.m and woke up at 10a.m, feeling so tired and sick but I've to head to work.

@ work:

HECTIC is all I can say no time to eat, no time to sit not even time for drink, once I start eating people keep coming to me to ask for this and that and what can I do? Easy all I can do is to put my food aside to start serving them and this makes me lose my damn stupid appetite. What do these people care about? Answer: Only themselves, today was like the busiest Sunday I've ever worked which at one point of the day, the counter was overflowing with people with well impatient look and probably wondering can't this gal (me) be faster but what you expect me to do... I'm unlucky to be alone at that moment with my colleague going to get food. I read Ku's fotolog and it seems like her work place is out of stuffs well my work place is in need of people and I need helped!!! I'm so tired that I fall asleep straight after I reach home T.T tired!!!

I just woked up from my sleep so can't seems to focus so I've no idea what else can I say so I guess I just have to end it here hee.

Back!!

2007-07-29T02:46:00.000+08:00

I'm DEFINITELY ELATED TO BE ABLE TO COME BACK TO MY BLOG YES... for the past 1 year I never been blogging as I totally forget what was my user id and password and my stupid email was gone as the domain host was down which means that email was a piece of junk.

I'm so happy I'm able to come back here and blog about how I feel, this blog is a tools which allow me to let out what I store inside me all the frustration, pain well happiness too. There is so much I wanna say but wasn't able to.

I've no idea where should I start my life from, so much i wanna say but yet now what I feel is blank. My life have been going through too much struggle, ever since she's gone I haven't been able to pull myself through many time through these months I've found myself in tears; wasting my life away; turned to playing games to take my mind off things and there started another journey which turns my life into another path.

These few months playing games like Audition and GE have made my life different, small changes like sleeping late in the night to next day in the morning always lack of sleep my biology clock is totally in drastic change so is my health till now even to today I still having insomnia but of course through games I can actually stopped thinking about many things which makes me cry. There is so much in me that I wanna say it out but no one there to listen, so much so that I just feel that in any moment I'm going to break down.

Playing these games makes me think lesser and from these games I get to know friends like Ting, Meow, Hot, Harrt, Kumori and many more... I find comfort playing with them and share words; jokes, a lot of things with them. They are now consider as part and parcel of my life maybe one day when I think back I might laugh at what I've done and I'm glad to be able to cross their lives and leave a mark there (I hoped I did ^^).

I'm still the Queen of procrastination, still figuring what I want to do with life so many things wanted to achieve but so little I can do. I've been wondering if I didn't hop on to NA and stayed in NT class what will I be like now?? Probably get a cert in ITE and working my ass off maybe it will be better than what I'm leading now therefore I've never despise people with qualification from ITE in fact I somehow envy them. I guess enough of these topic.

Here I would really wanna thanks Bel, Neng, Von, Anna for providing with listening ears when I really need them, I find comfort talking to you guys and I will try to stay strong to figure my life out. Will fight Tears with Laughter; Misery with Happiness; Sadness with Joy, but when I can't hold back my tears I hope you all can understand and just let me be cause there is really so much misery than happiness in me.

To Ting: Thanks for today really enjoy the time with you though we didn't do anything much

2006-11-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

Blog... probably getting tired of blogging le so never really update... My mood now is kinda of depressing, having tears drop down to my cheeks for no reason probably due to watching Goong again yes again and thinking of AH MA. I remember when I head to aunts' place one day and realised that I'm still not being able to take it that she is gone. I share with von that there are alot of thing I would like to share with ah MA I hope to bring back my 1st boyfriend to show her and tell her hey MA this is my boyfriend, I would like to show her the new clothes or shoes I bought like last time.

2006-09-23T17:56:00.000+08:00

Who are those people who judges me? How well do they know me and how well they know my life to judge me?

Some say I'm a bad person who treats my parent badly but how well do they know me to say I treat them bad? Say I never give money to my mum and dad after I get my pay. I hate people who judge, they think they are well off than people in fact they might be the same kind of people whom they judge.

People say I'm Straight forward if don't like sth I will say I dun like but infact I dun like but no matter what they get me I'll still keep it and appreciates it coz it is not the gifts that is important it is the sincereity likewise who to judge I treat my mum not well I dun have to explain to them if I give them money when I get my pay I know myself even though I dun help to do housework I wash my own clothes better than my other siblings who depend on my mum and I dun sweep the floor that's becoz my mum is dirtier than me even if I sweep she will dirty it again, I also admit I'm very untidy as well so I HATE PPL WHO JUDGE ME. I KNOW MYSELF AS LONG AS I DUN DO ANYTHING WRONG against MY CONSCIOUS

2006-09-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of Ah Ma's wake today is her cremation day and it will be the last day where I can see her then now she is gone forever. There was also a scene where u can see it in those gangster movies where all those triads pay respect, yesterday got a gang of small hooligans together with their "leader" come to pay respect to ah ma those are my cousin friends not those small hooligans but maybe the leader?but I wonder do they know their purpose of doing so. It's like watching movie group of people wear black then pay respect like a triads movie.

Often people always take thing and people for granted till they really lost them. I love her alot she has been taking care of me since I was young now all those have become memories.

I remember when I was young I used to run down to her place and ask her to tie my hair and she will tie two pretty ponytail or pigtail for me. When I was in primary school she will take care of me and de tong make sure we get dress and make sure we don't miss our school bus, as i get older I spend lesser time with her but often when I don't have key to go home I will run to her place for a nap and she will always asked if I have eaten and when I'm hungry she will always cook something nice for me although all her food is vegetarian stuff but I still loved it alot and always commented "ah ma it's very nice no matter what u cook it's always nice".

I remembered once I was having a bad dream and was kicking her while dreaming and she was shouting like ouch ouch ouch then I got woke up by her "ouch" after that she complained on how I kick her and I was laughing. Before she went to hospital I still disturb her asking her " ah ma u remember who I am?" she hates ppl who asked her this question as if she have forgotten us but I loved to disturb her she commented that I like a kid and never grows up. Pass few weeks seeing her in hospital with all those tubes I was aching hoping that she will get well soon and wont have to suffer those pain. Last sunday morning around 3 plus she was gone. away I can never taste the food she cooks again I can never say ah ma good night to her again.

AH MA I LOVE YOU GOOD NiGHt REST wELL inPEACE and protects all of us. I love you

2006-09-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

Not sure if any of you will be reading this but I will like to take this opportunity to say thanks you to the following FRIENDS: JOY, HUI XIAN, KOON AND ALAN really wanna say thank you for organising a outing to celebrate my birthday on 2nd Sept 2006. Really appreciates you al take this time to spent it with me although you all could have better things to do and thanks for all the presents I hope that all of you have enjoyed the day.

THE BREAK-UP

Went to watch the break-up like what the titles says thats how the ending goes... Awwwww is all I can say, after watching this movie all I can say is that getting into a relationship can be easy but settling down with each other is hard. If you can compromised with each other is good but if you can't you might end up like the couple in the show even though they know they loved each other but everything can't turn back to the same if one another just wouldn't compromised.

Lately I won't complained tired as I'm used to it but I know that I'm getting weaker as I'm losing my appetite and having on-off fever.

Nothing to blog anymore And I shall say I'm getting 1 YEAR OLDER arghz In 3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPppppp

2006-08-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

Who says I can't go shopping alone I always did whenever i feel like it or when i have something to buy just that not very far away from my home but today I head down to orchard forum to check out prices for my ipod gadgets after that head to BUGIS ICON and got myself some stuff hee

bought a ipod nano control which is much cheaper at icon

woot a pair of shoes which have been bothering me ever since I saw it when I went shopping with jun san woot.

Yes Ah ma is feeling better now and SHE WILL GET BETTER

2006-08-27T02:22:00.000+08:00

Past few days have been feeling weak and tada I know I'm sick again :(.

Have you ever wonder what are the purpose of being alive and what are the reasons that we are born into this world? Lately running back and forth from work to hospital to visit Grandma and makes me wonder why do people grow old? seeing her at the hospital makes me upset let's pray for her well being. Anyway back to the topic, I just keep wondering why are we born into this world for?

Life cycle of our life is like from baby to kids then we had our education then work settle down then live to old age and die. everybody goes through this cycle but why are we here have you ever wonder why? Why do we have to work so hard for just when we know we can't bring anything with us when we are dead, so why is everybody working so hard for money, fame or any other thing? I guess nobody will know the answer this is just the way of life.

2006-08-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

Is it me or am I just slow, run into some problem when working, got reprimade by my manager today saying that I'm not doing my job well what does she knows? I know I did my job but just that not good enough for her. She ask me you know why I never let you open the counter on sat? I know but I just pretend that I don't so she say It's because that you are slow and it will slow down the process. well I just listen and forget coz I know it will make my day worse if I gonna think about it. When she said that it makes me wonder is it because that i don't like what I'm doing that's why I am slow or is it simply because I am slow.

Have been pondering about changing my job but come to realised that I don't know what I can do if I really quit. I came to realised that I really dont dare to step forward to achieve it and I'm dependent on ppl thats why my manager also say that other ppl keep saying that I keep disturbing them that's why I think they dislike me. I'm not gonna cry over it but I'm just tired too tired.

Settlers

2006-08-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

Settlers A board game cafe which is similar to Mind cafe, for last week I've been going to Settlers which is situated at Katong for two consecutive days, Fri and Sat.

I realised that it have to depend who you go with then you will really get to enjoy the game as well as what are the time you are gonna stay, If you stay till late night, by the end of the day you will get all sleepy and thus not enjoying the game.

Fri night after Fireworks at esplanade (which is NICE and too bad didn't get to see the full view of it) I suggest to neng that why not we go settlers never mind the games I realised all of us are more interested in the food when it arrives so it was fun and that's the end of the day.

Sat was different, celebrated Joy's bday at No Sign Board and the food was nice, Situated at those places near Geylang and it was very Frustrating whenever you walk pass some AH pek or foreign worker they will keep looking at you and ya friends like what. Hui Suggested to go Settlers and I was like 'uh I just went yesterday' but since she wanna go then we head on to settlers. We walked pass the pet shop and see the DOG, a cute and quiet as well as obedient dog. Then set back to Settlers. Reach Settlers and the waiter who serve us is cute (quote from Joy lolz ^^)It is really very very fun lolx and among every table, Ours make the most noise and I Was embrassed by it and at 1 point of the time I think the waiter(cute 1) who teach us how to play this zombie game can't stand joy's friend Han WEi lolx that's what I think lah but Fun was the work to describe the day.

Now I'm sad for not being able to get leave on my bday as well as to the trip, Actually it was kind of depressingt o keep hearing them saying about the trip when I can't go haha dun care if any of u read this but I'M DEPRESS!!!

Now I WANNA GO SHOPPING TO GET CLOTHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (>.<) but sad to say no 1 to go with me haiz. =(

2006-07-20T15:10:00.000+08:00

Since I'm having an half day off at work and no where for me to go I shall stay home and blog but I'm so tired and lazy to do so can I just show pic and u will know wha tI did on sat WHICH I HAVE LOTS OF FUN... maybe better way is to say refer to my niece's blog MONA.... lolx

Let's see SAT how would I start.

As usual Went to work in the morning till 3+ before Mona came to meet me and aftre work me jos and nana went to have some snacks and guess who we saw walk pass? SLYVESTER and A guy from LUCIFY. Anyway I just get down to the fun part we went SUNTEC NUSS GUILD HOUSE for dinner to celebrate my cousin's b-day had a game of pool after dinner, we went to look for joy and after that me ARThur, NANA and DAn went to watch Priates 2 WOOT I LOVE JOHNNY DEPP HE IS DAMN HILARIOUS AND CUte!!!! well before we head for movie we had a long of walking and me and DAN was suffering becoz of walking more than 2.4 km with our heels on and we almost got lock out of suntec which might cost us our movie but luckily we found entrance and ME and DAN SWEAR IT WILL BE A LONG TIME BEFORE WE WEAR The HEELS AGAIN....

After Movie BaCK to The HOTEL at PAN PAC which actually make four of us piss off due to the services, guards there wasa like stopping us and keep asking us why are we there and who are we looking for WHAT THE, PAID for the room and yet they treat us like delinquents argh and how can they ask us what room are we in This shows that no privacy protected for customers...

Well anyway we did get back to our room after one of my nephews bought the key down to us!!! back in the hotel room me dan and nana was doing something stupid as ususal and 1st thing of all soak our legs in the bathtube haha and dan was saying her school gal were crazy over Paul Twohill did I get the name right??? anyway they will go HOW MANY HILLS DO U HAVE the rest will and TWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO haha damn funny lah...

Pictures attached below enjoy!!!

CAke was baked by DAn although doesn't look appetising but its nice effort and sincerity make the best out of it

2006-07-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

NO LIFE NO LIFE NO LIFE, I've been complaining about my life which is always damn boring with no LIFE after work, it's been like 2-3 weeks since I saw my cute two nieces DAN and NA and it's been Weeks since I saw NENG AND JUN AND THE REST OF PRINCESSES except VON whom I met earlier. Seriously all I do is work work work and work ain't fun always have to tolerate people and remarks that are BAD VERY BAD FOR KIDS to hear as well. It's life I know but maybe and I wish someone will hear me out like when I complain or when I'm happy share it with me sad to say I have no 1 not even my mummy!!!

TOday is A TIRING DAY, hear lots of stuff not concerning me but my bestie von and her mum with bf issue and what can we do we can ask her to do this or that only she herself can decide what she really want!!! OOOO I bump into my pri schmates as well but didn't talk just that I know we recognise each other lolx it's funny. and YEA I got myself few clothes from Double Index spend 70++ on just 1 pants and 2 tops.

Well NOw that I'm blogging I shall say I MISS EVERYONE IN MY LIFE JESS, ALL MY BESTIE and POLY FRENS, I miss going to sch I hate working as a matter of fact and I miss watching movies hanging out late at night which I still do, Miss going to mos with WAI and RON and do stupid thing I miss all my hanging out time and SAD THING IS I MISS COMIC SHOP ALL MY BOSS,FRIENDS and COLLEAGUES THERE EVEN THE CUSTOMERS.I miss all :(

OKIEA LET"S BLOG Something fun, yester went to Settlers with hui, joy, sharon lim and her guy frens and it was fun but tiring haha shall go there to play more board games and I shall try to play munckins lolzzzzzzzzzz thats all for now tata

2006-07-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

Was watching hard gay on you tube till my eyes can't take it anymore... It was damn hillarious and the guy was really funny with all the stunts he do no wonder he is a hit now lolx... It was recommend by Joy's poly mate to watch it as it was damn funny and since I have no where to go today I just watch and it True enough DAMN FUNNY once u start u will keep on watching and u can't stop. below is the link (>.<) friends out there watch it when u have time or feel bored it will definitely make u laugh out loud which I did lolz *tata*

http://www.youtube.com/results?search=hard+gay+english+subtitles&search_type=search_videos

2006-06-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

Just Came home from Evon's void deck after a long heart to heart talk lolz I realised that I really got no life and no 1 I can relied on and I'm sick and tired of my life, Can anyone just ask me out!!! I dun wanna end up like going to work and work and nothing else in my life except work.

On my way home I also realised that evon is the only 1 who I can really talk to about my life and what I hope and dream of as well as how I really feel, she be the 1 who will listen to all my problems, my happiness and all and guys I like or used to like lolz she the 1 who i can confide in and bare my heart out. I really grateful that I've know her.

I seriously want a life and get on with life!!! arghz HELPPPPP SOMEBODY NENG MONA WHOEVER ask me out when u still can wait till I'm dead old and boring u wont get the fun me!!!

OYA GUESS WHAT... -_- why I have ppl keep saying I look mix which is totally untrue and obviously not!!! my colleague thought at 1st I was malaysian which I say I'm not then he say I look abit eurasian and then he say i look like filipino... WHAT THE H*#$ since when I look like one of those, this is not the 1st time ler that I have ppl say I look mix are they blind or are they just trying to be funny

2006-06-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

*+iRed*!!! Yea I know I haven't been bloggin for a while but there is nothing to blog about, all I have to say is tired tired tired!!! All I do is work work and looks like I've got no life lolz waiting for some1 to date me out ba wahahah WHERE IS ALL THE PRINCESSES or other group frens like JOY, HUI and all lolz. okiea that's all folk nothing to talk about anymore I'm BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dedicated to all who supported me

2006-06-01T14:13:00.000+08:00

This post is created for you all You all who supported me when I'm in a confused state, giving me advices and encouragement that is all I have needed when I'm in a dilemma. Since young I have always been protected by my Brother helping me make all kinds of decision and aiding me in my studies even when I want to chose me own secondary school he won't allow me to thus I guess I'm a follower, decision making is never my forte and it will never be until I have to decide what polytechnic I want to be in. He did say never chose SP coz it's too far so I ended up in RP and thus my journey starts here by myself.

Till now I'm still the same never change, too afraid to make changes and accept new things, to afraid to speak up and make my own decisions, don't have a sense of security in my life, always needed someone just to tell me what I need to do. I can't even decide what I really want to do what my future will be like and now what job shd I work as. I can't see myself doing any jobs doing what I like, I don't even know what I want and WOULD like to do work as be proud of what I wanna do. I dont have the direction don't have the sense of direction.

Thank you all... JOS, HUI, NENG, KOON, BOON, KIAN HUI, RON, AINUNthose who I turned to THANK YOU and SORRy For causing so much trouble, I know you all have your own problem as well but you still give me the best advice and encouragement and the driving force to push me this useless person to move on...

Really thank you sooo much, I dont know how to express my gradtitude except profusely saying THANK YOU .

2006-05-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

Guess it's time for some update!!! Recently have been bad for me and I've say lots of times I shd start looking for jobs which I did but it always seems like I always screwed up during the interview and this concludes that YA I hate going for interviews. Oh man I'm like a kid hoping that I will never have to grow up and stay as naive as long as I can. The thought of stepping out into reality just scares the hell out of me... What to do I still have to find jobs so anybody got jobs please recommend me.

Recently I'm just down on luck... 1st down with dunno if it is a flu or blocked nose anyway I'm just sick then I'm down with fever which I think hit me hard on the head coz I'm like into english drama like OC and Desperate Housewife and this makes me think I'm crazy even a Poser haa (not funny)... okiea not only that 1stly these few days I conclude I'm a serious ROad IDIOT I even took a cab to my interview place which is near the coner and I spent 3 bucks to waste haa silly of me. and I also got my hand burn by my stupidity (-_-''). Now I'm kind of upset by Jess not being able to attend like Grad ceremony with us I was like looking forward to tuesday seeing all of them haiz guess this week just not my week hope it gets better by June *praying hard*

Oya About the tag and maine's reply yea I agreed with ya if there ever got this kind of guy exist I think it not on my time like maybe decades ago it exist. hmm this makes me wonder will I get marry I guess not haha (-_-'')...

2006-05-15T15:53:00.001+08:00

I've been tagged by MAINEZ so I have to do this here it goes... DOn't know I can think of 8 points mah haha(>.<)

INSTRUCTIONS.
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

#o1 he must dote on me and loves me haha be by my side whenever I need him

#o2 he must be able to listen to me and do whatever I want him to do

#o3 he must be taller than me and look presentable

#o4 he must treat my family members as if they are his own and respect them.

#o5 he must be able to support me and have a stable job.

#o6 he cannot be possesive and cannot have bad temper and he should never stop me from going anywhere I want unless it is really dangerous

#o7 he must be humourous, able to always make me laugh.

#o8 he must be sensitive and being able to tolerate me..

hahaha If got this kind of guy in this world well I would be dead man!!!

2006-05-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

2006-05-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

Time for some update and it's been hectic for the pass few weeks attending birthdays haiz why is there so many may babies I'm so broke by it and I have been having sleepless nights (>.<)... Shall start from 5th May On EVON's Chalet.... can I put for ya reference see Ling's blog haha shall posts up those pictures when the rest send me. On von's b-day went to Aloha Changi arghz what an WUUUUUUUUU LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU place haha and there were lots of mosquito but it is FUN except for the last part. I guess Besties Birthdays are the only way where all the princesses get to meet up and Everybody is the same hahah as 38 as usual and we are gossiping about our lives as well as juicy gossip haha and congrates to Von babe hahaa finally settle down hope u are happy haha. so at the chalet we played donkey haha but with stunts if the person lost the game and haha Alot of FUNNY THING happened that my stomache ache from all those laughing lolx... at the end had to go home coz didn't feel like staying and to my dismay A cockroach flew to my SKIRT ARGHZ CAUSING HIGH PItCH SCREAMING LIKE HELL AND A SHOCK ME there going to cry bloody cockroach spoilt the day....

Next It's Princess Ling's B-day and wooooot haha dressed up for it and our planned to go Goodwood park hotel for dinner was changed to Paragon for Spaggedis (did I spell that right?) we had fun there as well haha as usual when princesses meet up it's always having to squeeze put juicy gossip and guess what we saw UTT with TW VJ LINDA there at the same restuarant haha and throughout we were trying to say that it was not linda funny quote was "that is not linda lah, linda more beautiful" haha in the end it was the real linda and to think we say that linda is more prettier than the real linda lolx. well we have abit of cocktails there and BOTH NENG AND VON haha Like drunk especially to von's case haha nher face was all red and she was getting to talk loudly and her actions tells us that she is drunk with just 1 cocktail lolx...

Talking about yesterday is more Crazy only get to reach home today at 8 in the morning so tiring, what did I do I almost forget o receive a Morning call at 12++pm from neng yesterday and she is bringing me to a new cafe I've never been to and It's THE MIND CAFE a nice place where we get to play boardgame wooooooo and if's fun haha after that we went keko for chit-chat and then went to en's house for mahjong and after that at around 2am me, neng and jun get out of en's house and walked our way to siampang bedok for prata and we stayed there till 5 am then head to Jun;s house and chit-chat for like few hours before me and neng head backed home at 8++am haha this is insane = I haven't been sleeping for more than 24 hours, think I'll be dead if this kindda lifestyle goes on and haha me and neng actually think that calling each other bitch is so cute lolx next time I see her I shall call up like hey bitch to her lolx...

More quizzes result haha did it quite some time now shall post

You are a No Drama Mama!

No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you
You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy
You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it
You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is!

Are You a Drama Queen?

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces

Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship
And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can
Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing
A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Should You Date?

You Are a Skin Deep Sweetheart

You may be supermodel gorgeous or a plain Jane.
It really doesn't matter, because you're confident and secure.
You don't go out looking like a slob, but you are low maintenance.
You have better things to worry about than whether your nails are the right shade!

Are You Obsessed With Your Looks?

You Are a Good Girl!

You're into fun - but it has to be your own brand of fun
Drinking? No thanks. You rather spend your time differently...
Whether it's talking with friends, taking up a hobby, or reading
You're not the type to socialize just for socializing's sake!

Are You a Party Girl?

You Are Just Friends

The chemistry between you and your guy friend is stuck on "just friends"
It could be a lot of reasons. He could be attached - or maybe you are.
You've got two choices. Turn up the heat, or forget about a romance with him.
And if he does reject your advances, remember that there are plenty of guys who will want you!

Is He More Than a Friend?

Your Winter Look is Urban

You can't imagine spending your winters any place but the city!

What's Your Winter Look?

You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss

You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on.
You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals.

Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have.
No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!

What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You?

You are a Mild Mama

You don't have to be screaming at the top of your lungs to have a good time
You rather chill, soak in the moment, and appreciate life for what it is
Guys appreciate your "take life as it comes" approach...
(Though they wouldn't mind if you got a little wild from time to time!)

How Daring Are You?

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit
You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe
For you style is looking like a million bucks...
And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

What's Your Date Fashion Style?

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy
You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on
You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time.
Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity!
Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.
Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.
And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.
You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible.

You are most compatible with: B and AB

Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

Your Birthdate: September 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy.
And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.
Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.
You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!

Your strength: Your self sufficiency

Your weakness: You despise authority

Your power color: Maroon

Your power symbol: Hammer

Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Aiko Anenokoji

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Yoshiko Saito

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.
You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.
Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.
You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

2006-05-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm as usual still jobless hehe but well today is labour day and went out with Joy and guy haha it's cool we went to watch TAKE THE LEAD cool movie and cool ballroom dance move haha thumbs up for the groove and it's funny at times and went for fondue at Haagen das and 10% off the bills coz joy fren is working there haha that's cool...

Anyway more quiz done up and haha as I'm bored WAITING FOR NENG THEY ALL SO WE CAN HANG OUT AND CHILL OUT FOR AWHILE

You are Totally Realistic

"Romance" means you're about to roll your eyes
Seriously, you can do without the sap or drama
Save it for someone who has nothing really going on in their relationship

For you, love is real - and easily integrated into your life
You don't need candles, flowers, or chocolates to know he's the one
Just some stimulating conversation... and maybe a great smile.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic?

You Should Date A Swede!

You're a romantic, albeit an understated and practical one.
It's more about a steady partnership for you, not unrestrained falling
Your Swede will give you the unwavering love you crave
While making up some mean pancakes and meatballs on the side!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

Your Flirt Quotient

You are 20% Flirt

How Much of a Flirt Are You?

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Are Boyish Sexy

You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys
Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football...
Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox.
You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

2006-04-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

God I'm such a dead PIG and I admit it I'm such a lazy ass... Procratinating the whole day and lazy to find jobs and even though complaining that I've no job what the hell am I waiting for I have no idea... I'm just Lazy to even to step out of the house therefore for the past few days I've been locking myself within my house lolx anyway wasw reading Joelle's blog and I really enjoy it as it has lotsa of quiz I can try out so here it is.

What does

your handwriting say about YOU?

Men See

You As Understated

You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.
You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.
Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they

don't know you.
You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those

you know well

How

Do Men See You?

You Are A

Girl!

Are you ever serious? Well, you're seriously playful.
And guys are attracted to your girlish spirit and all the

fun that follows.
Your girlish, temper, however... well, they could live

without that.
Not to worry though, you never stay upset for long. It's

off to the next adventure.

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

Your

Reputation Is: Mystery Girl

You're the girl that everyone is trying to figure out.
Men are attracted to your intriguing persona - and women

want to copy it!

What's Your Reputation?

2006-04-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

saw maine's nick and then went to see his blog what can I say?? I know I'm stupid but i do think of him and I really hope I can be beside him when he is down but seems like it's not going to be that way.

我想我是真的累了。。。我讨厌我自己无时无刻会想起你。。。让自己泪水往下流。。。我累了不想再停留在过去的回忆。Perhaps it is time to move on... I think I should

2006-04-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

Very long never update my blog ler and I can't think of anything for me to blog it down maybe it's time for me to close it down. Ok let's talk about Yesterday.

Got a book at Kino yesterday at Bugis and the title is PS,I LOVE YOU by Cecelia Ahern, have been looking for this book for quite some time and finally found it maybe they reprint it lolx. well that's all I guess bye now

2006-03-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

woot still quite awake after a bath and I just got home guess later I will be sleeping like a pig haha met up with Ju and her bf, Sharon and her boy boy, Flo and Joy and we head to Mos wahaha coz joy wanna go see how it is like, its Flo 1st time clubbin too... Damn my toes are hurting like hell due to the heels I wore and the stepping of my toes by people -_-''' arghz should have go with wrapped up shoes instead but due to ai mei to go with my outfit I wore heels haha lesson learnt. Well it was kind of ermz how to say not really too much fun coz all of them is tired and the RnB area was damn crowded with peeps that you have totally no way to dance and constantly ppl pushing to get their way into the "cage"... Saw Sly yea as in the slyvester sim at Mos with a bunch of friends haha... Flo and Joy was like high man...

okiea enough of the Mos after that we went To ECP so that we can catch to see the sunrise wahaha before that we head to Mac and have food as all of us was damn hungry then after that we proceed to the beach and set up the tent... well very long never go ECP ler so suddenly some lost memories are flashing back kind of sweet but sad I have to let it go if not I might have tears rolling down at night.well the outfit we wore and went to ECP wasn't really appropriate and ppl was like staring hur hur :p

I don't know why is it becoz of my dressing that people thought I have got bf whahaha what it is weird that people think that so if gals dress up it means they are in LOVE??? we can also dress up to dote ourselves and make our life more happy haha... My boss all of them thought I was dating or there is somebody wooing me... Well I'm not attach (sad to say???) haha but I'm happy with what i have now hehe.

Well got to start looking for jobs although I wanna have fun 1st so tata by The WAy I miss all my friends in RP. Ah mao Jess Mainez and all multimedia peeps hope all of you are doing well.

Hahaa today is gonna be a long post I have did some quiz actually alot so now then have the mood to post it up.

Halloween Horoscope for Virgo

Eh, Halloween is not exactly you favorite holiday.
You costume is usually pretty simple - if it exists at all.

Costume suggestions: A scary mask or whatever you wore last year

Signature Halloween candy: Tootsie Pops

What's Your Halloween Horoscope?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You don't really value loyalty.
In your opinion, friendship should be earned.
If you don't agree with someone, it doesn't matter how close you are.
You'll let them (and everyone else know) exactly what you think.

Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."

Generosity:

You don't really value generosity.
Your needs always come first, no matter what.
And you'll possibly help someone else out...
But only if it helps you in return.

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

You are Sam Montgomery a.k.a. Cinderella

GO SEE A CINDERELLA STORY, IT'S GOOD!

Cinderella Story
brought to you by Quizilla

Your Passion is Purple!

You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.
If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.
But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.
You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.

What Color is Your Passion?

2006-03-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

Kill me please, its' only been two days since I left RP and I really miss school so much not about the PBL learning but I miss every little thing that I've been through since the past three years!!! I miss doing little thing like walking up for school, walking to the train station and take train to the long RP journey... I miss all the FAC, i miss going to school just to do FYP and most of all, I miss all the funny guys out there, I miss all of you my sales classmates Xiao hei, Da de, Jeremy those SEG guys all of them. I miss the 3 gals I hang out with Jess, Maine and ah mao. I miss those funny guys who always tease me Kevin, Don, Kuan liang, Zong xian Robin and her GF, Dino Chelsea ALl of them. I miss calling Ash ASH ASH BABY or PAA. I miss all these things I hope we can all still keep in touch...

Now that all of us have embark on a new phrase of life I hope all of you can find and do whatever you love...GOOD LUCK TO All my friends out there I miss yo u all!!!!

2006-03-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

Woot Damn tired just came back shopping with Jos and Anna at TM and although all of us stayed here but we still can shop for a very long time at TM and CS, walking here and there and hours just passed. Well kindda happy today as I did French Manicure with jos at Nails at Vogue, while we are doing our nails Anna went around shopping and today she really did quite alot of shopping, got her shoes and other stuff. I wanna buy shoes and skirt as well.

Well although I had fun but it was kindda disappointing as there was supposed to be and outing with my Developing Enterprise classmate but in the end it was postpone again haha well in few days time I will be graduating so not sure we still can go out or not :(...

Alright now talk about yesterday woot I got my new blog layout done and working in just a day which is yesterday I spent the time in class designing the layout and when I got home i try out the linking part and well here you are my NEW LAYOUT IS UP hhehe...

I find that this is the best design I ever had, the past few 1 IS SO KNS cannot make it... Well receive a call from CC earlier today thought she wanna ask me out or what in the end she call me just to ask me help her design a new layout hahah What the -_-''' 3 lines down my forehead haha... Yest Ju call to ask if I wanna go clubbing with them to celebrate Sharon's b-day but I rejected them as today going out but in the end there goes my FInal Destination 3 haiz sad but well what can I say!!!

I wanna GO SHOPPING and ( I WANNA FIND A JOB although I wanna have fun 1st :p)

Oya I've done this thing taken from william's blog hahaha

Your EQ is

153 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2006-02-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

What can I say??? I’m weak now I’m seriously sick and I need more rest having diarrhea (>.<) more there are a lot of things I wanna blog down but don’t know where should I start. Tuesday Sales Management module one word FUN!!! Seriously having fun with my classmates, they suggest went out to eat so we did and we went to Shaw the cinema level and have rice haha we took a lot of pictures while on the way back sad to say Xiao hei won’t be joining us next week he have to work and DAMN I going to miss him man my xiaohei and of course MY DA DE I WILL definitely miss you too and all my close friend in RP hahah if I got to name it will be a lot… then met up with Hui and we went for Sakea Sushi FUN and nice.

food we ate haha pepper chicken and teriyaki chicken rice

Da De looking at me eating whahaha

Me && Maine on bus hehe ^^

my lappy and 3 bear bear.

me using xiao hei hp take de nice effect!!!

Da DE me Xiao Hei

me and maine in class

candid shot by maine (pic include me xiaohei and da de)

me and xiaohei^_^

Wednesday Nervous and exciting day for me as it is my FYP presentation day and haha now it is finally over I can FINALLY get TO SLEEP well. After presentation went to sing K with maine, Jess, Kriz and have lotsa of fun but it is kindda weird for us to wear same clothes and walk around…. Some of them say we work in fast-food restaurant arghz but never mind we like it. After K we parted then I walk to PS meet neng they all then headed to MOS arghz luckily I never miss my UT because of that… luckily I went MOS with them if not they will be home damn late hahah can I say it’s fun??? Hmm not really ba coz I was kindda tired so never really enjoy myself hehe hope to go with my other friends.

Today Skipped school due to sickness and now whole body damn weak now… Mummy acc me to see doc and after that met up with Jos and hui to walk around, we eat sakae sushi hahha and went shopping, wanted to do nails but all fully book now feel damn tired. That’s all I’ve to blog nothing to say…

2006-02-20T11:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm I'm tired dead Tired finally I've been having fun, never felt so relaxing since the FYP period but awaiting on WED the PRESENTATION DAY OMG very nervous and excitied hope we can really do well no must say WE can do Well haha...

Any let's see what have been happening Fri hmm can't rememeber but SAT haha the FireFly Trip with Princesses, we took alot of pictures and it is damn fun 1st trip with princesses and we have fun shall post those pictures when I got them from my friend. A pictures says a thousand words right.

Sunday basically was just staying at home and rest I was like PIG I spend most of the time ZzZ goodness and worse trying to pain my nails and I sux the left nails are alright as I'm a right handed person but my right nails was like in a total mess (>.<) CAN SOMEBODY SAVE ME WAHHAHA oya yesterday I also spend my time surfing net and reading blogs and I stumble upon this blog while reading CC's blog, there this two chinese guys lip syn with some english song and they are damn funny, the world gets fun with these kind of person living here they are great just check it out okiea gtg bored feel like taking a nap ~tata~

http://twochineseboys.blogspot.com/ have fun!!!

2006-02-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching Fearless and Thumbs up for it, really worth watching it heard that it will be last Jet Li martial art show how sad it is.... 1st thing that you realised when watching this show is that Jet Li really aged alot. Before meeting neng they all for movie, I met up with my FYP teammates and we went around shopping... Right here say sorry for making u all spent $$ to buy another shirt just because of me anyway we spent most of the time doing labels all because my software can't be used at those printing shop sorry again :(... Can't believe that I'm going to graduate in less than 3 weeks OMG if only I can just stay a kid would'nt it be great but life never goes that way so I've to faced it.

Now I'm getting really really Nervous and Excited over the FYP presentation, next web will be the day can't wait for it to be over and then I'm FREE gtg soon...

To all my friends: no mater what happen in the future I hope that we can still keep in contact. there are so much more I wanna blog it down, let me think about what I wanna say for the past few week...

I remember this 为了不享受到伤害而过度的保护自己；但却在夜深时遗忘的回忆慢慢的浮现才知道过渡的保护是最大的伤害。。。 Anyway this phrase is I think of it when I cried also dunno for what haha okiea lah gtg bye

2006-02-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

Hahaa Jess is nagging at me saying that "ah ya you never update your blog de" ... Never update blog then cannot see meh -_-''' anyway I've did this how old do I act quiz extracted from my lao gong/lao po(sabrina)'s blog. This quiz is done long ago but no time to post so now take this time to post it then I can delete to clear place for comp hahaha (^.^)...

Goodness haiz the FYP video is making me crazy if it is spam out I going to die I don't know how to go school and faced people think I gonna stay at home, put on mask when I go out. That Charmaine aka Xia mian have been laughing whenever she watch that clip so funny meh ~.~

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I wanna sing K... OMG the Jess is getting cranky, sitting beside me and yet wanna IM just because she is bored so noisy and disturbing hahaha haiz then what can you blame??? is it because of high technology that makes people crazy then even if they sit beside you they can't talk must msn you???

2006-02-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

First I would like to wish all my friends, family and relatives Happy New Year…

Hmm I don’t know what can I Post let me think, this year new year can be rated to me as the most boring new year as nothing much to do. New Year eve I spent my whole day watching 恶作剧之吻 a really nice show and now I’m waiting for Episode 19 ahhaha can’t wait…. Then on 1st day of NEW year took a lot of picture with my bro and sis as well as Dan and Nana hahah really have fun but feel really weird with my dressing Dan say I look very cute OMG I hate that word (>.<) then the next day went to Alan’s house have steamboat Thumbs up for that really nice and we play cards and I won a bit.

As for Yesterday. We went to Qi’s house for buffet!!! And it’s Her 21st Birthday… Happy Birthday To our PRETTY QI ahahah and then Bel gave us a ride hahha and funny thing happens after that Neng zai, Von , Jun san and me went to Starbucks sit down and have a chat before heading home and I continue to watch恶作剧之吻 episode 17 and 18 on the net haha therefore now can’t wait for episode 19 and I like those songs so lively hahah make me feel very happy and thus let me forget all those worries.

2006-01-26T14:41:00.000+08:00

Currently sitting down in class listening to fac saying about closing a deal although it is developing enterprise but it seems the same like sales management. Classes are getting more and more boring and right now today the first time I feel extremely sad and feel left out I shall not disclose why... Not that I keep saying myself useless but its sometimes the environment and people makes you feel that way u think you are be it feeling happy or useless emotion are often affected by things surrounding us.

Somehow I feel that tears are near to the side of my eyes and sooner or later I will cry...

2006-01-24T11:02:00.000+08:00

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Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

2006-01-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

Darn it... MY LAYOUT SUX and please if it is sux must say don't say nice lolx... Anyway Miss my UT for Developing Enterprise Today ALL thanks to THOSE PURPLE STAIN created by my own foolishness sianz and now my mum is making the matter worse she is staining my clothes with bad smell of toast and I was kindda Piss off... She make me can't wash my clothe sand when I finally get to do it she ruin it with bad smell but what can I do (>.<)

Anyway today is kindda funny, went over to Jos place after school and we had homemade spaghetti cook by Jos and Joy hahah THUMB UP FOR THAT, it taste really great hhahha so while eating we enjoy ourselves while watching video and that’s all for the day

WISH ALL OF YOU A ADVANCE CNY in case I don’t have the time to blog…

2006-01-22T17:27:00.000+08:00

Okiea trying ou to create those click click thing in my blog for this new layout but still there is some prob but as long as it can be us eI don't care ler... feel free to comment on this layout although I find it ugly lolx okiea this is a test out

2006-01-18T20:50:00.000+08:00

The same as yesterday, went to school earlier today for FYP and it seems like my time is all being tied down by it but I'm still okiea I feel more bad towards Don for helping us even though he got his own thing to do and although earlier in the morning I edited some of the thing but still it is not up to standard therefore Don have to help us and sitting beside him looking blankly at him working makes me feel extremely useless :( I don't know what have I contributed although I got do the web the credits and the codes for the report but I feel that it is useless and I have contribute nothing at all.

Was supposed to go DXO with Neng they all but put this idea away as the rest of them have no lesson tomorrow except me. Anyway hmm I should really start saving up lately I'm suffocating over Bills can’t breath arghz I’m dying over paying bills

Okiea Stumble upon this email sent by Hui and surprisingly I can read it can you???

Can You Read This?

Olny srmat poelpe can.

I Cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

2006-01-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

As usual, Sunday is my working day and I have lots of fun although Elisha was not here as she is sick hope she will get well soon. My boss came down and we have lots of fun talk but sad thing is that she say I look younger than 18 L ARGHZ if say I look 18 I can accept it but less than 18 haiz guess that is my fate. Probably I should change the way I dress haha but that will make me feel uncomfortable

Today was a busy day don’t even have time to eat L but I think worse for n my colleague ba he like never eat anything except 1 same sardine curry puff and 1 stick of chicken wrap and we had a soya bean ice-cream 1st time try it and I find it too sweet lolx and here I wanna Thank Hui for helping us get food hahah and thanks for the brochure.

I wanted to further my studies but I have no $$ and my grades in poly is not that well therefore I don’t think I can make it to Uni haiz.

Okiea now I’m so blur I forget to submit my work to 3D not that I never do but I redo it more than 10 times and to no avail, I still can’t get it work the way it supposed to be haiz and I’m now upset over it.

2006-01-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

Damn I miss my UT today okiea kindda depressed about it but never mind I'm fine now lolx okiea now I'm more depressed over how can I match clothes to a coat I've got (>w<) hahha been going for shopping but to no avail I've got nothing and I have no idea how to match it although I know It can go well with skirt but I don't know what kind and what color skirt it goes well with haiz.

my coat... what can I match with it???

okiea In less than 2 months and I'll be graduating but still I've no idea what I wanna do hmm guessI should start planing any recommendation???

2006-01-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

Right now watching the Channel 8 show the 1 which featured Ann kok and Fiona Xie haaha although miss few episode but I still enjoy watching it. Anyway today what a dreadful day(>.<) I hate raining days when I got back home my toes have been soakin dirty rain water for umpteen times I have no idea why but it seems that lately I have speech problem it is either I say something wrong or i pronouced it weirdly. Okiea today lesson is kindda weird haa as our fac just don't understand him that he keep insisting us to form our own team and must confirm the names and therefore we spent most of the 2nd meeting deciding if who should be in which team... -_-''' Hmm to Jess sorry yea make you wait so long before I acc you to makan (>.<). anyway I've read Jess's blog and I feel sad that she is feeling sad I just hope my friend will be happy and don't hide anything if any of you need a listening ear I'll be there!!!
took this pic with Fransin's hp while on the way home the color is just nice hahaha isn't it

2006-01-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

Well what am I doing here? Ok just that I'm bored but still I'm happily watching interviews of 王力宏 on Channel 49 Get a copy of his cd it is nice!!!. As usual just the 3rd day of school and I’m already skipping lesson… You can say I’m finding excuses for myself but seriously I’m dead tired and I did not sleep well yesterday and went to bed quite late…. Why am I sleeping late??? That is because I’ve been working on the report and YES I’m done with the report for FYP as in the actionscript part and I’m very happy but not sure if Jess will like the way I placed those codes hahaha I’ll make amendments if she don’t like ^^.

New year is approaching fast this year and we be having lots of holidays on Jan but I can’t get my minds off shopping, I wanna get clothes as well as a new wardrobe as well as save as much money as possible to prepare for the trip to Taiwan with my friends, I know it’s contradicting of wanting to go shopping and saving money haa well that just me anyway I got myself the coat I’ve been wanting to get since 1st Jan and when I get the name cards from the shop at Far East then I realized that they actually have a shop situated at Tampines goodness I’m just so stupid haa.

Hmm read a email and Ya I agree with Jess that I feel very bad I really feel that I owed him a lot I just don’t know what to say and this comes to make me think is it me or have I really lose my faith? I used to love music is it me I’m just plain stupid that I’m of no help.

Updating!!!!

2006-01-05T12:15:00.000+08:00

Hahaa Finally back to update... Been a long time since I update my blog as I'm busy with lots of thing like FYP, PP and of course many celebration like x'mas and countdown to the year of 2006, now sitting in class and waiting for 3rd meeting to come haa today's was easy just finish by a few min. I wanna go shopping hmmI wanna get clothes for NEw year as well as a new wardrobe ahhaha...

Thanks ron and wai for the pressie haha I like the clothes, they got me a purple shirt from flesh imp hahha >.<

I don't know what else can I bored except that I'm bored!!!.

USELESS.... :(

2005-12-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

Today as usual nothing much went to sch for Fyp and I'm surposed to come up with the audio for the music but I'm dumb figure out whole day and spent sooo many hours and only come up with a few lines music haiz I'm just not talented and today I just feel all that useless never contribute much haiz I just don't know how can I edit don's music and he really help us alot I feel sooooooo bad. If only I can be all that smarter and all I can come up with nice music from the garage band haiz all I can say is I'm useless never have I felt so useless before and I even complaine to neng zai telling her how stupid I'm >.<...

Lately have been losing appetite haiz already soo skinny ler still lose appetite and I'm getting gastirc pain more and more often and insomia as well I think sooner or later I'll not being able to hold on and get crazy....... Right here I can only say sorry to all my team members for being so useless.

X'mas Season!!!

2005-12-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

Great now at my bro's room using my lappy and counting down to X'mas eve in 7 mins times haha... Today I feel really great, very great hahha went to school for fyp today and sorry Jess you waited so long but we are almost done heheh and hope we can finish it asap and I have done the credits and next tues I'll have to edit the music hope that it can be done (>.<) Haa today Jess seems abit slack oppx :x sorry hahah and after that we went around orchard to go shopping hahahh today really have sooo much fun never really have fun doing shopping last time but today really enjoyed it Jess say probably is the x'mas atmosphere that make us feel enjoyable well I feel maybe because we need to get pressie for friends therefore we have fun... Haa guess I really need to constrain myself from spending, got myself a Bag and I like it hahha but scare that I won't use it for long and went around finding presents and got some for exchange ahhah... later gonna wrap those pressie. anyway After spending almost whole day at Orchard me and Jess went to Bugis and shop again woooooooooo really have soooo much fun at the end of the day both our leg are tired from all those walking but at least we got something for ourself hee Jess also got herself a bag...

The Bag I bought hahha love at 1st sight although it might be common hahha

Anyway Right here I wish all Of you Merry X'mas And Have FUn wherever you are!!!!!!!!!!! Enjoy!!!!!!!!!!

SORRY >.<

2005-12-16T14:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz just woke up, now kindda feeling worried for Von she went to Cine alone and I feel sooooooo bad for not accompanying her haiz guess I not a very good friend :( seriously hope everything will turn out fine No everything will be fine haiz Right here I wanna say sorry if u read this but I think u never comes to my blog and read it.

Seriously broke nowadays due to x'mas shopping for all my nephews and nieces and a shoes for my presentation..........

ARghz EVON SORRY >.< SORRY SORRY SORRY I feel sooooooo bad

2005-12-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

Saturday 13 December 2005

Yesterday went to school for FYP fliming and I guess it was good we are progressing quite good talent was vrey cooperating and good hahha she really helps us alot Thumbs up for her after that I met up with Evon and Neng at Queensway to shop around for addidas jacket so right here say Sorry to Jess, Maine and her friends never join they all for lunch at Jack's place (>.<) but think they should really enjoy themselves without me ba haha... Ahhh I remember my ears was in bad condition my ear was swollen and having those liquid coming out arghz Hope it be alright. Okiea back to the topic anyway after I met up with Von and neng we went to bugis to get Jun san pressie then went to bedok to meet von's friend and watch Perhaps Love 如果爱, it's a nice movie and the songs were nice touching I really like Jacky's Chan character and his vocal is ver power really can tell the differences in the show and thumbs up for the korean actor who sing those song himself guess he have to put in alot of effort in learning chinese and memorising the script.

看完电影的感想
我认为描写的男女三角恋爱的情结很好，爱一个人不代表要拥有他/她，让他走也可能是一种解脱。sorry for the error if you see my chinese is not that good ^o^ any after watching the show it just tell me that loving someone doesn't mean having him/her probably letting him/her chose what he/she really wants not only can free her but probably freed yourself from being miserable as well anyway it's a nice show so can watch it if you like musical hahha.

SUNDAY 14 December 2005

Today was surposed to meet up with Jess and maine for FYP meeting with eric as well as do some editing for the video but i didn't turn up due to having stomacheache as well as side pain think I spraine my side... Lately I'm getting weaker and weaker and no appetite to eat as well and keep having severe headache hahah can't be I'm having brain cancer ba (>.<). and I think my Ipod was spoilt so I was depress as well but I'm alright as when I decided to send it for repair tomorrow it turns up to be okiea and finally it can be connected to Itunes and update the songs which can't for the past few days... Today I really sleep for the whole day arghz keep having headache and need to rest and as well as can't move due to stomache ache.

RIGHT HERE I WANNA SAY SORRY TO JESS AND MAINE IS YOU ARE READING THIS REALLY SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO HELP

K.T.V.ing

2005-12-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a happy day and long awaited as well me,nana and dan as well as winnie has been waiting for this day so we can go K-box to sing and I ask evon to join in as well therefore right here wanna tell her sorry she doesn't seem to have much fun probably not use to it and she didn't sing much as well (>.<) before we wen to sing, I acc my sis to bring Justin for check-up and darn it didn't go well arghz Justin just refused to talk and he seems to have a problem with his vision so sis was kindda fed-up with him haa anyway after singing we went to TM and walk walk as well as eat... We went to mos and I wanted to try the new Scallop burger but I don't like the peas so I ask if they can exclude the peas and no is the answer so I can't try the new burger (>.<) haiz after Dan and nana left, me Neng and evon went to shop around in the end we sat down and chat, we chat about lots of stuff till the mood was spoil by a guy who approaced us and asked for our number... What in the world is happening to young kids now adays haiz with dye hair haiz and even smoke and from there we told him that we are older and his answer is more funny... 不要紧，现在姐弟恋很流行... What the what kind of answer is that haiz The world is changing and I understand what will happen in the future.

Oya received a message today from hui about JJ what in the world is she saying and why does she have to message me about him for??? it's nomb (none of my biz) :x

Last day of SChool here comes HOLIDAY!!!

2005-12-03T00:58:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of school and holiday is on the way yeah *cheers* but that doesn't mean I can relax as FYP is on the schedule (>.<) Anyway today is the last day of the school and the last lesson is sales management, I just love sales management I don't know why but I just love sales management maybe is the classmate there are all fun loving and we totally like to crap hahaah ^^ but after holiday we have to change team ler don't know how to chose lolx anyway we'll see then oya if ling was reading this I wanna say sorry when you IM me I was away for lunch therefore never see your message therefore sorry. Anyway during the 2nd breakout me and my classmate went to wheelock's BK to have breakfast? or should it consider lunch anyway we had fun woooo just now watch tactics seems like a nice show ahahha ^^''' lame I know Chatted with Ainun abit and glad she is doing fine there althought she saying she is planing a trip to visit hondakun -_-'''

mainez and me arghz my hairstyle sux (>.<)

sales management classmates

charmaine aka "xia Mian" opps :x

Jeremy known as "Big Boss" in Dino's blog hahah

cute Fransin hahah always fight with her over Dino for fun (>.<)

^^ our very own xiao hei or xiao bai (>.<) Dino!!! ^o^

Oya I owe Dino a cup of hot milo -_-''' due to losing him in minesweeper -_-'''.After sch was surposed to meet neng and go home together I waited her for sooo long then she tell me she going bugis with her friend haiz should have reply me earlier but never mind I fell sick haiz went to TM watson to get hair styling stuff hahaha so I got myself a hair clay thanks to meiyun's advice saying I should get clay instead of wax or gel as it won't cause hair drop also don't know if it is true hahah so I have to learn how to style hair from now on heheh as I got a new hair cut form storm a few days ago.

Hope tml can meet up mona and go shopping if nothing went wrong hahah ~tata

2005-11-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

Arghz surposed to meet Ron and wai and maybe NENG to go esplanade you know but that ron halfway run away and go to queue for tics therefore we not meeting ler so I can't see wai in her formal wear >.< and I cannot see niu nai ler :( FYP is makin me damn stress and having severe headache arghz WHY can't I just be those who don't need to study and still able to pass with flying colors.

2005-11-26T14:56:00.000+08:00

Right now at home slacing, was surposed to go school to do filming for FYP but mainez friend cannot make it therefore we have to postpone it to Mon instead... Just read ling's blog and I agree with her that you will never get sick of watching 王子变青蛙 it just nice and I finish watching S.H.E reaching for the star show and right now there is nothing for me to watch ler anyway I also have no time to watch show as I got to do my FYP >.<>.<>.<

You Failed 8th Grade Math

Oh no, you only got 5/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

1st attempt should'nt I get at least a moderate pass I got half mark for it ???

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 8/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

2nd try and I pass LOL!!! okiea with abit of guidance from Dino >.< anyway after school I went to get my pay, finally is not I can take half a year and i still not collecting it lolx coz not in need of money then don't collect lolx another motive is to take picture with my boss for MY PP. Speaking of PP right here I wanna thank Boon(my cousin) for helping me check for my grammar mistake as well as the format of the report, I OWE YOU THIS TIME THANK YOU. He is really a good cousin.

after collecting my pay I went to Expo for the IT fair and view around , meet up with Koon and Alan as well and we walk around to see what's available and at the IT show I saw alot of RP student going there to see as well as working there lolx. Well had fun with Koon and Alan we were practically just joking all the way from there back to tamp. I'm happy for Koon as she is blessed with happiness and hope that she will always stay happy guess Alan will be able to provide her with laughter ahhaa she is definitely more cheerful nowadays last time so fierce always face black black opps :X haa

Oya heard from neng that Ling san took picture with niu nia and he is staying at he hotel she is working at.... HOW LUCKY SHE IS >.<>.<

2005-11-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm, Gonna do some research for tomorrow's UT >.< what a day today developing is sooooo boring as usual I'm late haiz Each morning I keep telling myself to wake up early but to no avail.Finally I get to relax abit as PP is almost done thanks to my self-motivation hahah I put in my nick 加油加油加油不到紧要关头我是不会放弃!!! therefore whenever I think of this I will go on hahha to motivate myself mah hee ^o^ and now I'm left with the content page as well as the poster but I need a guide if preferably someone to check for me hehe and thank my cousin hahhah always there to help me.

Lately Damn tired and OMG my face lots of pimples poping out sianz haiz :( and OMG too many junk food hahah and I really haven't been exercising therfore getting more and more weak and I find that this month is Crab month is it hahah Yesterday ate crab when celebrating neng zai's b-day also eat crab then after that Aunt Rose b-day is on the same day with neng zai I also EAt CRAB no wonder I getting more and more crabby haha >.<

I shall work hard for my daily grades arghz have been skipping classes for the past few weeks. OMG today got some kind of insect bite me arghz >.< and making me very pain.Oya I'm happy as well found out that my CE has complete ler YEAH!!! Cheers... Always think of the brighter side and make life happier hahah ^^ chaos gonna go study ler

Stress Level!!!

2005-11-21T16:22:00.000+08:00

O man didn't attend mulitmedia authoring lesson again due to late night sleep yesterday slept at 3+ arghz What am I surposed to do I hate to go sch, there's nothing I can do it is damn boring but I know I can go on doing it haiz now that stress level is high due to alot of work stuff and now PP is making me headache arghz!!! I've been putting it aside for a long time not that I don't wanna do it but I don't know how to even start with all the information I have it is as little as I expect HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crazy me

2005-11-14T16:25:00.000+08:00

Oh man finished 王子变青蛙 for quite some time yet I'm still mesmerized by the scenes, Ming Dao is damn cute inside and I'm so crazy over him now hahha wanted to watch the video that ron say exist the ming dao de ji yi, never been so crazy over a drama before he is soooo damn charming inside hahahaa you can say i'm crazy lah I don't care. This show makes me cry like hell and laugh like I'm crazy cry at this moment then laugh while crying hmm the script writer is good huh hahha... anyway haven't been bloggin' wanted to change my blog layout but got no time and my PP is not even finish guess i'm dead this time.

charming ming dao/ dang oh/ jun hao hahhah

me and one of the puppies

five little puppies sitting on the ???

cute isn't it ^^

2005-11-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

Haven't been bloggin for some times and seriously have nothing to do now therefore I come to do some update... Damn this few days have been very tiring and right now putting aside my 3D animation work, I'm surposed to draw out a head for the 3D but I have no idea how to do it, I have been getting more and more lazy somebody please give me a hand and wake me up. Can't wait for the day to end coz I get to meet the princesses to celebrate neng zai's b-day.

OmG yester Icry from 1+pm to 12 am because of watching 王子变青蛙.. so mesmerized by it arghzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz dang ou is soooooooooooo cuteeeeee whahahhah can't wait to continue to watch it left 7 more episode hahahhahha ^^

woooo shall post some pics and show some cars woooo cool hahha so sianz sia

cool car!!!

three of us

sianz I wanna go home but meeting neng they all after that sianz gtg ler haiz I wanna cry!!!

2005-10-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

Damn tired nowadays everytime after lesson went home straight to sleep some say I'm a pig but i'm just dead tired. Now sitting in class waiting for the 3rd meeting to start and whole body is aching especially on my neck. Today work up with my ear swollen WHAT THE heLL HELP hope it won't be serious and that it won't have a ball growing out of it, I'm kindda scared!!! guess shall see how it goes tomorrow if still got swell I shall go see a doc. Partly also my fault for not taking good care should'nt have eaten prawns and seafood when i've pierce my ear now suffering and lately whole body is aching ARGHZ I can feel that I'm growing weaker and weaker what is going on with me what the hell is happening.

Thanks for all my friend concerns, I have reconcile with my sis since she apologize to me hahah but not really on talking terms as we also don't know what can we talk about.

Lately I have lots of thoughts, I feel that my life is in a blank as in I see no future for myself it seems like time have passed but I'm still staying put in the starting point where I have no achieve anything and I have nothing I can proud of. People often ask me what do I want to do when I graduate I can even answer them I have no idea myself what am I surposed to do?

Fac is here got to go shall blog next time when I'm having the time to d so bye~!!!

2005-10-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

Had a tiff with my sis not a tiff more like a fight a serious fight in terms of physical, emotionally and verbally. a minute ago we were happy singing at K-box and the next we are fighting she was mean I'm her sister why do she have to treat me like that she often treat outsider better than me her sister connected by blood. She never ever care about my feelings in front of relatives and outsider saying I’m a lesbian and I like gals and stuff I have had enough of all these kind of verbally hurt words is my life born to let people make fun and tease of why they never ever care about how I feel WHY? Sometimes I just wish that I wasn't born and times I just wish that I'm dead but I'm a coward I don't dare to kill myself but if killing myself is a more cowardly act. Nobody ever feels how is it like to be me nobody if you stay in a situation like me then maybe you will understand but I guess no one will ever understand, living in a world where everyone makes fun of you when you are skinny when it's not even your choice. I myself also admit that I very skinny but who ask for it I can't even be fat even if I eat a lot, some people will say "wow so good, if I got your figure then I'll be happy ler" Really? will you be happy I guess not cause you are not me everyday I can hear people calling me names and making fun of me but I just get over it but how long can I pretend that they are just joking how long? I'm a human with feelings I will feel sad too although you may say I'm silly why bother what others say about you but can you really ignored it I have enough. What more sad is that my sis say that in front of so many people that I like gals after we have a fight she sms me really very bad stuff and I too can't control and sms her scolding back things.

I cried earlier on when speaking to Evon. I can't help but cried now too when I'm blogging this. Thank you Thank you Evon and Joy, Both of you are always there when I needed some one when I need a listening ear thank you. I'm lucky to have you all there to hear me out if not I don't know what to do I might not have the courage to live but with you all I can lessen my burden. Thank you I don't know how else can I expressed my gratitude can only say thank you and no matter what I'll be there for you all as well.

2005-10-14T15:23:00.000+08:00

In sch now trying to figure out my RJ question today having 3D animation OMG what a tiring module and I feel damn tired having to stare at the comp for hours without having breaks therefore I haven's eaten a single thing and Yest I wanna thank Joy for acc me to go around and find my ipod nano and I got it for 424 although abit ex but at least i've got a 14 bucks off 438. TOld maine about it and she tell me her friend got cheaper haiz abit Sad and heartache about that but never mind as i already buy it ler but what most heartaching is that when I buy I heard from the new that Ipod having a new model coming out OMG WHAT tHE F*** hmm should have wait but never mind lah i think I will like my new ipod nano can't wait to use and the person who sell me the ipod is a nice guy as he tell us alot of things and how should I charge my batt.

2005-10-13T15:49:00.000+08:00

Was procrastinating earlier on and putting everything aside and not wanting to do a stuff I have no idea why as well, maybe could be due to yesterday tiredness or I'm just plain lazy so right here I wanna apologize to my teammate especially to KL well but they also won't get to read this blog so no point putting here.

Waiting for my FYP mates to end their classes then we can meet up to discuss on further ideas yesterday watch alot of MTV and don't seems to get any inspiration most MTV have storyline. Eric wanted us to produce something industrial standard and what we proposed yesterday was not up to his standard.We also wanted to produced some great industrial standard but it seems that our ideas are just plain boring or common. FYP haven't really started and I'm already cracking my brain haiz feeling very tired this few days and don't have much energy... My injury is recovering soon but still hurts so hope it can heal faster then I can wear MY SKIRT whahaha.

Gonna meet joy later to buy things and she is sick haiz sorry to trouble her and hope she will get well soon especially her fracture arms?? the other day I keep accidentally hit her injury part I'm SORRY I very rough de okiea my stomach is growling now DAmn hungry I want foood!!!!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-10T16:04:00.000+08:00

Right now sitting in class and procastinate, don't feel like doing anything as whole body is in pain and brain is not even processing, today lesson is a drag and the funniest I have ever attend whole day we never even speak and our presentation is over... The fac is a funny director he ask he ans our team didn't even really speak a word and in a blink the presentation is over what can i say whole day is a tiring battle between me and my brain. Maybe becoz of the stay in koon's chalet and right now I'm both physically and emotionally injured. Physically injured is due to yesterday fall on the road who ask me to be so "act smart" hahaa thats what mummy say yea but falling down is good what at least i gain the experience of how it is like to cycle on the road and the feel of injuring myself. Saturday I got stung by a tiny bee and my sole felt pain and abit numb arghz and without good rest for two day's my whole body is drain from energy it's aching all the way and now I feel like i'm running on a fever feeling damn hot HELP!!!!!!!!!!! I think i need serious rest.

2005-10-04T16:56:00.000+08:00

Oh my what have I done??? Fancy agreed to watch movie with ron and now I'm sitting here waiting for her to end which still have about an hour time hahha so in this case I think i will make use of the time and blog hahah due to a long break not really break my holidays are spent working hahah Money is impt therefore having fun scheduling this week and see what can I do after sch. Read my tag and saw a few friends they keep asking me to update my blog well I would like to but just doesn't have the time and my house stupid modem seems to be having problem to connect hahah. Well awaiting for tml's meeting with joy we gonna go sim lim and see mp3 and I might get myself with the hottest gadget now which is ipod nano whahahah >.< school has start for two days and it seems fun. Yesterday team was fun and it's the 1st time having lunch with my team as in normally people will go eat with friend but instead the four of us go out and eat together when we only know each other for the day but the fac is kindda long-winded hahah save me from the story for the next 15 weeks please.

Class today is fun as well and nice kindda having fun interacting with my new teammates and friends maybe becoz we are year 3 therefore we dare to talk to others now wahhah well hope the next few days class will be great as well and I do miss Jessica hahah >.<>.< HUNGRY!!!!!!!!

2005-09-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

Haven't been bloggin' for very long and seriously don't know what can I blog about shall say what happened during my b-day then and show you guys the pressies I received.

6 Sept 2005
Celebrated with joy and gang thanks for all the time you all spare with those busy schedule you all have really appreciated the time you all spent with me to celebrate my B-day, did nothing much we meet up at hmm about 6 ah if not wrong then after that went to bedok 85 market to go makan ordered quite a number of stuffs hahaha eat until full sia ahhah this is pressie I received!!! THANK YOU lOTS

Drawn by JJ given to me -_-''' nevertheless thanks lots

Hui give me this sweet what weird looking one !!!!

another pressie given by hui THANKS *muacks*

The other pressie given by joy and gang heheheh !!!

7 Sept 2005
My B-day sian one year older ler well this time is celebrating with my princesses THanks lots really had fun. We met up at bout 7 ah then went to K-box to sing woooooooooooooo Sing until hmm 1+ very fun Von and ling sing the mei li ben nu ren alot of times and the ke ai de mei gui hua wahahha they got Kelly craze going on but we had fun singing and dancing till the waiters all keep pretending to walk pass our room then see what we doing and there are those guys at other room keep looking into the room make us cannot really enjoy.. got one part very sweet of them I went toilet and when I came back they dedicate the happy b-day song to me WAHHAHA very funny thanks lots then when we left the guys from other room wave to say goodbye ... a bunch of kids tsk tsk hahah anyway ltr we went o Mac to eat and talk before heading home hahha REALLY HAD FUN THANKS GALS AND FOR THE GIFTS AS WEll!!!

From mphosis and little match gal hahah Love it >.<>.< hehehh okiea nth to blog about le tata~

2005-09-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

Get to go walk around with sis before going bugis to get pay she got me mascara and give it to me as a B-day pressie Thanks JIE hahah don't have to give me gifts I'm also happy, I'm not really keen on celebrating it hahah getting old ler now I understand why gals when they get to certain age don't like to divulge their age ler hahaha ^^ anyway went shopping with sis at tm and century together with her two kids JJ or J^2 hahah Jovin and Justin my two beloved nephew loved them haaha ^^. SO just walk around till 6 before sending them back to Eunos haiz Jovin is sick nowadays, got asthma hope he will get well soon took a few pics using jieÂs new sony hp hmm and very nice hahha can say that bringing the twomischievouss kid out can kill me ahhaha >.< Â after that went to bugis to get pay then met up with ainun at the shop together to get pay then we went shopping awhile before heading home hahah I wanna work more and I hope I can get a pay rise hehehe need to hint hint my boss ler >.<
me and JOVIN hahah my DA BAO BEI cute hor>.<
Jovin with his act cute post ~.~'''

my xiao bao bei and da bao bei... Justin and Jovin hahah they are so naughty.

Yesterday as usual work, and talk a lot of crap with Ainun >.< saw him hahha long time never see him ler and stupid her say that he glanced over at me when he say bye haiz need to get him outta my mind no point thinking of him when he is haiz donÂt wanna talk about it ler.

Anyway counting down to me B-day hahaha KTV with princesses on my B-day love them for making my life so wonderful. Tml got hui they all to celebrate with me as well THANK YOU HAHAH LOVE YOU GUYS ermz I mean gals hahha

2005-09-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

Oya just read Mona's blog and she blog out her wish list for B-day I shall follow her as well although I'm okiea that people don't give me pressie wahahha just wanna make it a list that I shall save mony and buy it myself.

1) hmm mp3 player >.<
2) Bags me already aim one ler hahahha
3) clothes
4) jeans
5) shoes
6) FOOD!!!!!!!!! wahhahah
7) hmm skirts
8) Cupboard!!! seriously need to find time to get one ler whhahaha >.<
9) go for Japanese lesson I wanna learn lah *bleh*

okiea compared to nana's list mine is nothing much hahah shall strive hard and SAVE UP TO BUY ahahaha

2005-09-03T18:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously bored at home now doing nothing else but going online and watching tv just finish watching 'zhen qin' then visit other people's blog in my link, just read mainez blog like her blog's background music very nice that somehow filled with sadness maybe that's how i interpret the song although her post is the same but today get the time to read the story and this strucks me who do I think of when i'm sad and tears just somehow flow down my cheeks. To come to think of it, there is no one I will think of when i'm sad as i always put those sad things inside my locked heart, haa kind of funny, I may be a happy go lucky person but there are many thing i rather keep to myself it seems that there aren't many people that i can trust. I don't have many friends and I like to be alone at times, the world won't stop turning when I'm gone therefore i'm happy to have some good friends around me. Guess I'm not making any sense on what am I saying I just want to blog how i fee right now haa that's how i'm.

People always don't know how to cherish those beside them and when you find those who are always beside you are gone then you regret but often that is too late. Be it friends, family I'm trying to cherish you all and I hope I can, there are times which I say something I have regret and I hope that all of you won't take it to heart... To my friends thanks for being there it just make me feel happy that I'm not alone, I still have friends who are there and thank you.

Right now i'm just being emotional that just how I'm just ignore the above blog it's just nonsense.
Surposed to celebrate my B-day today but change to the actual sate itself which is on WED HAHAH GONNa BE oLD LER guess really have to change myself ahahha. Friends often tell me I should try to dress up but seriously I don't know how or maybe I just don't want to as a form of protection ba I JUST HOpE I never grow up I still wanna be mummy's gal but time will never wait for me so guess like how Jess feels I also feel I should change hahha often I get lots of comment from others saying why i so skinny hah I alos don't want to be skinny de hor but no choice no matter how much I eat also won't grow fat hahah can anybody help me?

ANYWAY NANA AND HUI'S b-DAY coming need to spend $$ hahah gonna do laundry ler haha ^^

Right here I wana thank you guys for making my life so colorful and knowing each one of you is like drawing one color to the rainbow and forming it so thank you maybe in the future we may never be like how we used to be talking to each other but I hope when you are feeling down can find me I will lend you my listening ear ~tata~ crying baby signs off

2005-09-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching the finale for Superstar and Weilian won hmm Thumbs up for both Kelly and Weilian, no matter who's the winner both of them give their best they could and they make the show looks great :) I have nothing to complain about the result although some might feel Kelly should win but anyway both also gets a record contract right so no matter who win or lose both turn out to be winners... Anyway as usual didn't go for UT today hahha guess will flunk my GRADES for this sems, no one to blame but myself as I'm feeling so sick and tired of traveling to RED HILL but I'm GONNA WORK HARD FOR NEXT SEMESTER I WILL TRY.

So i missed the test but met up with Kristine to go school together and we reached very late like about 11 and on the journey we talked about FYP which is now what bothers me the most as I don't know what should I do or who wil be my team members for sems 2 FYP I can't get a definite answer from Stephanie and Fadilah all three of us don't know if we were to continue doing our project and if we still wanna stay in the team ahhhhhhhhhh PLEASE SAve ME FROM THIS TORMENT. I just wanna get a team and get this over and done with. HAIZ guess i have to really ask them what they want... Anyway tml will be last day of sch and holiday will start soon YEAAAAAAAAAAAA cheers finally get to rest o but still need to go school for AVP to improve more on it ahhaha today is such a crazy day I was like damn hyper and throughout the lesson I just can't sit still hahha HAD FUN although the 3rd presentation is as usual draggy hahah then i tell Jess chris look more and more old talk until long and draggy hahaha so after that went shopping with Jess. It's been a long time since I've gone out with her and we walk around FaR east, she bought a old soap for her aunt is it? and she got herself a monkey top anyway had fun going out with her, me myself aim a bag ler SHALL GO BUT WHEN I GET THE CASH ahhahah >.<.

Oya OMG CAN MAINEZ please remove that pic arghz visit her blog and she put a pic of me wearing Jon's chanel spects so ugly hahaha.IF you happen to read this sent me this pic ahhah I think it's FUNNY oya and the AH niu ge pic is also FUNNY AHAHAHHAAH our class very own jon jon lolx

~tata~

New post for the day...

2005-08-30T09:24:00.000+08:00

Oh my i'm addicted to diner dash again keep wanting to get thre expert score for every level haiz FYP2 is coming up and I don't know who will i gonna team with as Fadilah seems like don't want to continue doing what we have haa i also tired of it anyway was surposed to meet neng zai after school so I waited for her after UT and in the end she say she going out with friends :( sad she put me aeroplane ahahha and now that wed I'll be free so joy joy if u happen to read this do u wanna celebreate on me B-day itself hahah anyway back to neng putting me aeroplane so in the end me and ash go home together and went to have dinner at CS hahah have a fun time shopping with her and she got a new cute dress I think it's very nice as last time I also wanna try it on but hahah my figure cannot make it lah hahah anyway was making meegos just now and created a da 1 with me ahhaha omy neng all ya fault I'm addicted to it gaggaga shall show ya my work ahhah...

Cute right hahaha >.<

YESTERDAY

Dead tired yesterday went for a haircut with ling yesterday, as usual slept like pig yesterday and didn't went for class haaaaa I know I shouldn't jeopardize my grades but I hate going for lesson when school is so far away hate travelling there haa anyway quite tired after a long nap and was watching tv when I suddenly receive a hp call from ling ahhaha sorry yea my hp don't have caller ID therefore everytime when I pick up the call I will be like "Ermz Who are you ah?" hahaha and people will laugh at that when I say who are you over the phone... So met up with ling at about 7.15 to go tamp blk 800+ to go FUSION.HAIR to cut hair hahah on our way to the interchange we got... approach by the predential people... and what a werid qns they ask they ask us if we are sista do we look like we are sista? haha then I go ya she's my sista lolx the the person keep asking us to do survey sorry I don't want to then I walk roung ling he also follow around...then in the end I have to drag ling go hahah then during cutting hair ling's hairstylist ask her if I'm her sista.........she say ya same age sista ??? hahahah weird people these days anyway after that went to Watson for a shopping spree hahaha and woa ling buy lotsa stuff hahah ... Hmm guess the more we earn the more we will spent...

The back of my hair.. due to unprofessional skill taken by my mummy!!!>.<

Ling and me with new hair cut although cannot really tell hahah >.<

~tata~ gonna do Biz FINANCE ARGHZ HEADACHE!!!

Updates for the past few days

2005-08-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

haa Back to update trying to refrain myself to use comp so often to protect my bloody going to blind eye haaa well anyway Pimples is up again maybe due to too much fried food and late night sleep although pimple has never left but over a period its getting better... okiea now gonna update what happend from fri till today...

FRIDAY!!!
Skipped School hahah didn't feel like going to school and was damn tired so just being lazy and woke up late... receive a call from kristine asking me if I wanna go school I was like huh OMG it's about 11+ if we go so I say nay and anyway I meeting evon to go lucky plaza to get key for work on saturday... Before we went lucky plaza we went to aljunied dunno what kampong something I mean the address wrote it like that and get her mp3 for repair OMG the place was a hmm not as in hell but is bad when we arrived at the level the smell of paint and tin is damn strong I almost wanted to faint from there hahah we have to run to the place we wanted to go and run out of the place asap If you went there bet you will get brain damage for smelling so much... woooooooooooo After that then we went lucky plaza to get key and nothing much as I am surposed to meet jos and joy as well as hui to go geylang and eat woooooooooooooooooooooooooo hahha Damn nice speaking of food I'm hungry now arghz hahah we went to eat dou hua and you tiao the famous 1 and the mee sua hahha then after that we went to this sze chuan restuarant to eat steamboat shall post some of the pics oooooooooooo Damn nice and hahah athe waiter there very nice hahah thatz all that happened on FRI...

Steamboat before putting food in wooo the left side looks spicy yea?

After putting food in

'Dong fen' hahha take for fun de

Spicy chicken I had only 1 bite

Small Crab oh my hahah

Jos and Joy joy!!!

SATURDAY!!!
Haiz did nothing much lor Just work first time working at lucky plaza OMG it's damn boring nothing much to do work there can make me freeze due to the aircon, it's damn strong and keep wanting to go toilet hahah I need to wear long sleeve and my jacket will still feel cold, time pass so slow that i seriously have nothing to do arghz and work that make my thinking so very slow and somehow feel like stupid hahha keep making mistake when finally can close the shop I have to try alot of times to make sure the metal gate is shut and locked properly Hope I wont have to work there again SAVE ME hahah !!!!

SUNDAY!!!
which is today work as well but thank god i'm working at bugis hahah and get to work with apple is great hahah we bicker alot alomost all the time for today then we had fun talking and working hahah everything is great today after work we went to BK and have a drink hmm seriously weird saw alot of friend from RP ahahah in total 3 different groups lolx weird anyway just sit and talk to her and chat about how I will feel when she going japan for a year and bybthen when she's back I might be working at other place ler haah haiz and then went home lor haiz sista tell me a bunch of teenager damn bloody fucking asshole why am I so vulgar becoz those kids really asshole as sista tell me they use rocks to hit a rat then never mind put the rat on the road to let car run over it shit right wah liew after car run over they took pic of it arghz although rats are digusting pests but please WHY MUST DO THIS KIND OF THING TO It those kids REALLY fucking asshole arghz okiea thatz all I have to say need to go rest ler

~tata~ Counting down to me B-day AHHAHA ^^

BREAK!!!!

2005-08-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

Wooooooooooooooo Finally all's over, FYP is finally over, yesterday was the presentation for Fyp and I'm glad that i can finally have a good night rest. It's been a long time since I'ver blog anyway even if I did blog there will be no one to see and I'm just bloggin' my stressed out hahaha ^^. Holiday is on the way 3rd spet I'm waiting for you!!! I'm fully book on Sept 6 and 7 ahhaha thanks guys ermz I mean gals hahah for sparing time to spend with me hahah YA all the best... hmm nowadays i'm lost for words there's nothing for me to talk about oya this sat i'm gonna work AT LUCKY OMG NEVER work there before as in never really work there for whole day before hmm guess I've to used to it hahaha ermz brrrrrrrrrrr... WISH ME LUCK THEN hope I can manage the shop alone hahah. oya pictures of me in formal wear!!!!

me in the FORMAL... how I LOOK? sucky right ahhaha

FREAKING SHIT

2005-08-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

This is getting irritating well what can i say i just can't understand what people really thinks why get so work up over small stuff and why can't people just give in to each other and don't make small matter big I just hope things will work out for those who know what i'm saying better not to lose a friend. Well anyway I'm happy to be able to meet up the Tamp gang hahah coz mabel finally are free. I met up with von 1st then we went to go window shopping as well as go see formal wear heheh aim one liao but don't know if I should buy as seriously now broke shall say why ltr. okiea so after window shopping, me and von went to meet ling at keko which of course she haven't reach ahahha then when she reach von gonna GO novena buy HP -_-'''' hahah so me and ling go TM arcade find neng zai haha she was the nanny for the day as she need to take care yao yi hahah so we met up at the arcade then after that went to YA kun eat hahah then sit there and chat before heading to neng zai place to play GAME OF LIFE hahah to play with yao yi if not he will be bored. YAO YI CALL me spagetti jie jie what the HAHAHA ^^ everybody laughing becoz of that.After that MABel's ask her BF to give me a ride hahah THANKS ah...

Well OKIEA now I'm seriously broke just pay hp and internet bill and still have to pay my cousin the lappy $$ arghz then now I have to help mummy pay the washing machine $$ HELPED ALL MY SAVING WENT THERE I'm SERIOUSLY BROKE HAIZ what to do she's my mummy dun want her to be so tired washing the clothes by hand after our washing machine spoil... I need to save all over again haiz :( seriously my mum won't give a damn of how long I save the money just hope she son't buy those lottery when she have $$ she just dont save and always complain to me she's broke, what bout me arghz well thatz all I have to say guess I need to work as much as i can haiz :( I need rest my face pimple getting more and more............

LIFE IS DAMN FUCKING MISERABLE AND UNLUCKY FOR ME

2005-08-19T12:30:00.000+08:00

Oh man this is damn boring, right now sitting here in class bloggin' come on can somebody save me from this slacking place well what can i say, this is the last few weeks of school before this term ends, Finally can get to relax for awhile as FYP is finally done left with the presentation which is on next wed 24 August can't wait for this to come to an end haaaaaa and get over and done with the formal wear thingy(right now it really bothers me as what should I wear during the presentation?

Right now having game development as today's module. not much people come as most of them will clear their leave as much as possible and holiday is approaching so is UTS... Stressed level now is 50-50% as too stress as I'm so bored Omg SAVEEEEEEEEEEEEE me my teammates are all so slack ahahha INCLUDING ME that's the worse part. feel so sleepy now wanna orh orh zZz hahah guess I'll take a nap >.< :p

Drained from Energy

2005-08-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

all my ENERGY have been drained out... OMG FYP is really killing me and stupid RP's way of grading it makes me feel even angrier arghz what can I say... It's my own choice of chosing this stupid sucky school just my luck... Well I've BEEN SERIOUSLY BUSY WITH FYP this stupid fyp deadline is today wed which means I can finally get to REst YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want my TIME BACK ahahha well i've have been having sleepless night for almost 4-5 days even more since the coming of national day arghz kindda having some stressful moment and till now I'm down with sickness and head pain like hell now arghz okiea no w I dunno what to say headache and can't think gonna go RESTTTTTTTTT YEA I NEED REST think i'm going CRAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZY

2005-08-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

Saturday what I can say is just crazy just woke up after a long tiring day of hanging out and chilling out on sat... WHat I meant Crazy is that 13 of August OH MY GOODNESS Why in the hell is there sooo much August Babies celebrating their B-day on 13 of August... Yest I have to rush for two B-Day Party and it was totally crazy hahah to count there are actually 4 B-Day in progress as in my Friends there's Isabel's, Joy Joy's, Xiaop's and another sec sch friend all celebrating their Birthdays hahah but luckily I only have to rush for two of them's which is joy's and xiaop's...

This is the Procedure which I called it what I have done yest...

Woke up at about 11+ and gonna meet up with wai and ron to head to xiaop's Chalet at Downtown East hahah we have agreed that we should not be late and 12 we will have to be at pasir ris control station... Oya Fri had fun too We meet up with Joy they all and went to don to celebrate her b-day too hahh sat is her bbq so it's different. Then meet up WIth XiaoP hahha hmm what did we do in the mean time waiting for the BBQ to start at 7 hmm which is the same as joy's BBQ so I have to missed xiaop's and had fun at joy there, but in the meantime waiting for the time to pass me,ron xiap nand frens went to cycle from Downtown east to PasirRis Park and damn tiring hahah then we went to arcade to have fun after that ron me and wai wanted to go bowl so we went to teh bowling area and have two games ahhah damn ex 3.90 per game haha slowly slowly we waited till it's about 7 and I went to joy's BBQ.

At Joy's BBQ:
TIRING I have to slowly walk from the Downtown east resort all the way to the other end think it's more than 2.4 hahha but luckily I can slowly take my time to stroll there hmm saw joy and gang and some friends haha Food is the main part yum yum with Das and Alan as the chef hahha nice yummy food hmm I also helped out tooo okiea haha I work for my food I help to bbq the chicken wings but for a short while only hhahaha as i can't make it as a good chef lolx and stomach is growling so Food TIME ahhaha well had lots of nice chat with them and fun and Damn crazy is the water bomb part haha GOODNESS the GUYS are all hmm Crazy? hmm it's a nice word for them should more like hmm asshole hahah keep throwing water bomb at us gals Damn Crazy so we wanted to take REvenge but hmm should I say we suceed? I dun know coz a lot's of unhappy things happened during the game well after that I acc hui tp wait for Mr.M to fetch her home while I wait for cab to get back to xiaop's chalet we did lots of stuff while trying to stayed awake shall posts those pics later when they send it to me nevertheless I can SAY IT"S CRazY FUN...

SUNDAY which is today!!!
REACH home at about hmm 9+ then went to bath at 11+ coz when reach home I just stone there sitting down doing nothing hahah maybe due to the crazy night yest then damn it hahha Went to bed with hair still wet so woke up at 6+ which is just now then ate porriage Thanks Daddy hahah for cooking *muacks* then starts to work in my projects and yes I'm finally done LOLX woooooooooooo CAN relax I wanna go shopping ahhah not to mention some late night out fun as well >.O hahhaha..

HEY DAN DUN CAlL ME AUNTIE OKIEA although I'm ya aunty hahah Sad I'm old 19++ gonna be 20 next month lolx

Happy Birthday Singapore

2005-08-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

woooooooooooooooooooooo today is SIngapore's 40th birthday right here saying happy b-day to ya... can't believe that National Day is here again time passed so fast now watching on tv on how pandang,tamp,yishun,marina south and juring east and now tv is howing the kallangwave over at the five place woooo me gonna meet up with cindy neng hui zhen and maybe von to see fireworks hahah ENjoy yaself Chill out FOR THE DAY.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111